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ANNOUNCEMENT

Due to scheduling conflicts (i.e. my lovely wife's), QUILL DAY is now changed to QUILL DAY EVE, August 19th. The day of August 20th may still be observed, as there have been requests [by other people than myself, of course] to celebrate on both days.

As always, I aim to please - especially when it comes to par-tays - so that may be a possibility. Kind of a "you demanded it" type of thing.

Regardless, QUILL DAY EVE is now the official day of the main celebration of my birthday. Further details to come as they are pinned down.

@ Green Meat: Congratulations on your upset "win" over Hizzy's Smartasses.

I've been MIA in blog-world these last two days, and I apologize; I'm working out at one of our jobsites directing traffic. Very hot, but easy, work.

Anyway, that's all I have for now.


Quilled Tunes: "Won't Back Down" - Fuel

...Montauk, and "Quill Day" announcement...

Montauk was a lot of fun. And it was also miserably hot. Here’s the breakdown:

THURSDAY: We drove down to Montauk, stopping at Pizza Inn for dinner along the way. Our cabin was sweltering hot, because the AC hadn’t been on all day. We ended up having to go to Heather’s dad’s camper to get a bed for Matt, and the owner came barreling down in his golf-cart with a gun because he thought we were breaking in – he was a very rude, elderly, asshole of a man. (“You know that’s a good way to get shot?! It’s dark, I don’t know who you are…think about it!” – The Asshole Geezer.) We went to sleep as the place was cooling off finally.

FRIDAY: We went swimming, and spent a lot of time at the cabin. Because I’m intolerant of heat, I slept…a lot. We went to the trout hatchery [Montauk is all about trout-fishing, FYI], and boy was there a lot of fish in there. Brad and Jeremy showed up at the time Marcia predicted…they stayed in the camper all weekend down at the camping grounds.

SATURDAY: We spent Saturday chilling around the cabin, visiting the game room, and walking around Montauk. I hope that I never have to walk around Montauk in that kind of heat EVER again. Don’t get me wrong, I loved the trip and had a lot of fun, and I would definitely do it all over again, but that heat was absolutely ridiculous.

SUNDAY: After much debate, we left ahead of Brad and Jeremy and made our way home. We had dinner, got back to our apartment, unpacked, and then Heather and I relaxed while watching Eurotrip and eating ice cream.

@Heather: I had a wonderful time, and I look forward to doing something like it with your family again. I just hope I didn’t annoy anyone with my intolerance of the sweltering heat…

I got a lot of reading done on “Black House”. God, I love this book so far. And it DEFINITELY ties in with the Dark Tower books in ways both subtle and ‘in your face’ obvious. Speaking of the Dark Tower series, I have only two left to read, and my birthday is coming up. I hope to get at least one of them.

August 20th. Say it with me...August 20th. :P

Speaking of my birthday, I am going to want to do something to celebrate it. The perfect part about it is that my birthday falls on a Saturday this year, the prime day for partying (at least for those of us with regular jobs). [Just a side announcement - this year I'm not "sharing". In the past few years, whatever we've done has been, in part, a "joint" celebration due to my birthday being so close to other people's...which has been perfectly fine with me, nothing wrong with it. However, this year I'm going to finally treat it like it was actually MY day and MINE alone. I'm not going to be demanding to go anywhere in particular, nor will I be wearing costume jewelry - but I AM going to be treating it as "Quill Day" exclusively.] Any gifts or presents are - as always - NOT AT ALL required, but will be greatly appreciated, should any of you feel the need to get me something. ;)


Quilled Tunes: "Look Out Below" - Closure

I'm off to Montauk

I'm off for a luxurious weekend camping at Montauk with Heather and her family.

I will see you all [at least in blog-world] on Sunday.


........


Erich Mueller has done it AGAIN. He - :)

LOL! Just kidding. :D I'm such a dick...

Things at work are EXCELLENT now. I can't go into detail, but trust me...

Oh, btw - we got some new horror flicks:

- Soul Survivors
- April Fool's Day
- Darkness Falls
- The Wolfman: Legacy Collection
- Cube

Hopefully, the two Resident Evil flicks will be joining that list soon as well. (Nix, I know you didn't like either of these movies, but I did. You liked HO1KC and 28 Days Later, so...hehe). Aaaannd...I have a birthday coming up in just under a month, which means more goodies for me.

I also won the Promotional advance copy of Gravity Kills' sophmore album, "Perversion". Nothing really different about it at all, except for the case and the art on the CD is different. It's not so much for new music as it is for the collection. I now own the promo copies of all but "Manipulated".

And on that note, I bid you all adeu. See you in a few days.

GEORGE W. BUSH SUCKS! REPUBLICANS SUCK! THE RIGHT-WING SUCKS! EXTREME, NEO-CONS SUCK!!


Quilled Tunes: "Ugly Like Me" - Die Symphony

...wacky, wild wednesday...

Contrary to the title of this entry, there's very little wild OR wacky about today. But then, the day isn't over yet...

Anyway, last night was "Metal Fest" at the Red Sea on the U-City Loop. Beaver and I rode down together. We met the new drummer and vocalist for Scarlet Whore, he's a pretty cool guy. Divulsion was pretty good. Very loud, very hard, metal goodness. My ears are still cloggy a bit. We also checked out Vintage Vinyl while there. Those were the good points of the evening.

The bad points are that I had to leave early, and I got touched and hugged by a toothless, homeless black man. Not that there's anything "wrong" with him - I just didn't wanna be hugged by a stranger, much less a bum who's probably trying to pick my pocket LOL. [At least I wasn't unbelievably cruel and inhumane to the less-fortunate like SOME total asshole I could name *cough* Jay *cough*.]

This weekend is camping at Montauk State Park with Heather's family. Should be a lot of fun.

Current events? Let's see what I have in my bag...

- Nix moved into his own apartment at Covington Place. It's a pretty sweet little pad.

- Corey and Nicole have apparently broken up. I'm not clear on the reason behind it, but from what I heard from Corey, it's because he decided to go visit Scott. Since he told me this, they may have rectified the situation, so stay tuned.

- "Milstadt" is back from his honeymoon. That means that he gets to have his job back from Heather's brother (who's the college summer worker he claims to "supervise", who actually supervises HIM). Now poor Jeremy gets to sit in the passenger seat and ride around from school to school, delivering paper and supplies, rather than drive the truck himself.

- Nine Inch Nails is coming to St. Louis on October 14th, and I will be there. Scott picked up a ticket for me before he went out of town this last time. There will be several other people there as well, but that's a moot point. If they all got sick the day of the show and couldn't be there, I would only be worried if something was going to stop ME from attending. Nails alone or with friends is still Nails. ;)

- "Milstadt" is also the cause of yet more controversy. I was originally going to refrain from even talking about it here, but why should I? I'll keep the explanation of it short and sweet, though (I mean it this time):

Erich told Angel Bone that I was going around talking shit about her. Not only have I never said a bad word about Angel, but I also haven't been around Erich in any capacity for him to hear me say anything. Either he's now decided to lie on me outright in an attempt to turn people against me; or he figures that since I did it to Toni (which is also untrue, btw - Erich just THINKS I did that), I probably did it to Angel, too. *end explanation*

Either way you slice it, it seems that Erich truly has NOTHING better to do than to concentrate on me. [Just look at the track record:

He thought about beating me at his own bachelor party AND his wedding; he told Dan he started the Growler's card just to get his mug before me - since I "am the first to do everything"; he was all for the "plan" with the girl's night that wasn't really a girl's night; in picking out his wedding party in the beginning, he publicly stated that he was going to go to all lengths to exclude me from it, to "teach me a lesson"; he publicly states all the time that I was the person who "turned all his friends against him and against Toni", when the exact opposite was true.]

I've since talked to Angel - and Joe - and set things straight. And it's not like Erich could actually cost me any friendships with his bullshit. It's just so damn funny that Erich does things like this, and then turns around and calls ME the asshole, and says that I'M the one in competition with HIM.

And yeah, with as much as I touch on the subject - here and in person - it certainly appears that I am just as obsessed with Erich, and that it bothers me. Appearances can be deceiving, however...

I guess I am an asshole in the respect that I get joy and find pleasure in using my talent to crack an insult and ridiculing a situation, idea, and sometimes people. This whole thing with Erich is just too juicy and perfect of a target for me to pass up, which is why I make so many goofs on it, and him, respectively.

In regards to this stuff bothering me - well, that really depends on what you mean. I was certainly "bothered" when Heather was being victimized because of some kind of problem with me. The fact that people are being told lies about me "bothers" me SLIGHTLY, in the same way a fly might bother me buzzing around my face - annoying, but EASILY remedied. The entire debacle overall "bothers" me in a "Man, that's just one of the most pathetic things I've ever heard of in my entire life; how could someone BE so childish and immature?" type of way. And, of course, the fact that I lost a once-great friendship in Erich certainly "bothers" me for the simple fact that loss of such a thing IS unfortunate - but that's where it ends.

If you mean that Erich "bothers" me in the respect that it keeps me up at night; that he's on my mind 24-7; that I find it impossible to enjoy my day without 'worrying' about Erich "Milstadt" Mueller; that the things he does and says in regards to me "hurts" me at all, in any way; that he causes any kind of "problem" in my life...you're definitely barking up the proverbial wrong tree. :)

[Hey, I said I'd keep the explanation short...I made no promises about the soap-boxing that followed! :P ]


Quilled Tunes: "B.Y.O.B. (Bring Your Own Bombs)" - System Of A Down

...back in black, or something...

Sorry about the lack of posts lately. It's really just because I got lazy and didn't feel like posting.

You know what's so funny? Despite the fact that Republicans brag about how they're in the majority and that the Dems - and liberals in general - are powerless, they sure do spend a lot of time trying to put on a brave face. IMO, if we "liberals" - meaning MORAL people - were such a non-threat, the "conservatives" wouldn't spent any of their time talking about us, making speeches, and continuing to distort facts and truths. I think we ARE a threat, and I think the conservatives are actually scared. After all, right NOW they have the majority in everything, but they make their speeches and distort the truths anyway in a vain hope that they can keep things that way; hoping to ebb the flow of the reality of what they're doing to this country, and keep it from waking people up to realize how shitty things are because of their right-wing actions.

When "Kool-aid" represents equal rights, civil rights, and cures for countless diseases - when it stands for morality - you better believe that I'm going to settle for no less. It's a lot better than the alternative. You want me to shut my mouth and stop calling out for my "Kool-aid"? Fine. Come over here and make me. Of course, you're incapable of doing it at all, in any capacity, but just give it a try. ;)

We "liberals" will not be the underdogs forever. So, conservatives: Keep running scared. Keep making speeches born out of desperation disguised as confidence. Relish the time that you have while it is yours, because with every passing day your time is coming.

Saturday, we went to MP O'Reilly's. It was lots of fun. Joe, Angel, Scuba, Beaver, myself, and Heather went. We also met Becky and her friends down there. Afterwards, we went to Denny's, and then home.

@Nix: Congratulations on your new apartment. It's pretty awesome, and perfect for your lifestyle. Thanks for having us over.

In other news, SOME people just do not know when to leave other people alone. It's very sad and pathetic.


Quilled Tunes: "Easy" - Cowboy Mouth

Fire Karl Rove!!!!!!!!!!!

Dear President Bush,

Karl Rove, your most senior advisor, is embroiled in another controversy – this time for leaking the identity of a covert CIA agent. Despite carefully worded denials, it is now apparent that Karl Rove discussed the identity of an undercover CIA agent with a reporter. His clear aim was to discredit that agent’s husband who had dared to challenge the administration in the buildup to the war.

You have a choice to make: Spend the months ahead focused on protecting Karl Rove’s job security or spend them focused on protecting America’s national security. You cannot remain silent.

All I’m asking is that you remain true to your word. When the scandal first broke, your spokesman, Scott McClellan, said “If anyone in this Administration was involved in it, they would no longer be in this Administration.” (9/29/03, White House press briefing). What you do now, in light of Karl Rove’s involvement will speak volumes.

Decency — and the interests of the American people - demand an end to Karl Rove’s days in the White House. You have the choice to either make good on your promise to hold accountable those who shared the identity of a secret soldier in the war on terror – or prove that promise hollow. I call on you to keep your promise to the American people and fire Karl Rove.

Sincerely,

your name here (sign the petition to fire Karl Rove)

...2 years and climbing...

Today is me and Heather's 2nd year wedding anniversary. It's also known as the "Cloth" anniversary (which means we would give each other something cloth as gifts)...however, cloth is stretching it as far as gifts, so we've scratched that idea for the most part.

Anyway, tonight will be dinner someplace semi-fancy, probably a movie, and who knows what else...

See you guys tomorrow. :)

Weekend Update

It was a pretty chill weekend. Here's the breakdown:

- Friday night was fun. Hung would with Scuba, archived some CDs.

- Saturday was relaxed and mellow. We had dinner with the Manzellas, games, and ice cream.

- Sunday was cool, too. We had Scuba and Beaver over, and we watched Family Guy, then Urban Legend. We also went to Ted Drewes.

In a move that was completely expected, but still pretty damn sad, Erich had me on his mind even on his own wedding day, commenting [to Beaver] on how much Scott's speech sucked and how Scott didn't wanna really be my best man or be at my wedding...

Now, it's true, I do plenty of talking about Erich myself, but I do it out of ridicule and goofing on the stupidity of the situation. This whole deal, and Erich in general, is WAY too perfect of a target for countless jokes, goofs, and ridicule for me NOT to do it. Erich, on the other hand, actually obsesses for real. Hehe.

But hey, at least I got to hear an amusing story about the wedding from Beaver. I won't make fun of it here - oh heck, why not? I'll give the short and sweet version. :)

Party bus has no A/C. Erich freaks out, throws a tantrum, and starts bawling, 4-year-old style. Epps and a guy named Eric pull their cars behind and in front of the bus, so the guy can't leave. The driver calls the police, who then make Epps and Eric move their cars. Driver leaves to serve a wedding party not picky about A/C. Erich's parents bring their mini-van.

What makes this story hilarious is the tantrum part. The broken-party-bus part is actually common among weddings, as I've come to find out. OUR party bus experience was perfect [btw], but other people have had poor luck with it (it happened to Ben and Michelle, too).

In other news, Corey is going back to school, namely Meramec college. That's completely awesome, IMO. Also going back to school is "Big" Nate, which is also awesome. Continuing education is always cool to do, I think. I wish them both the best of luck.

The mp3 archiving is coming along nicely. I finally have all of my Gravity Kills archived, and backed up. As well as having most NIN done.

Nix is getting his own place. Congratulations, Nix!

There's going to be a large surge of Loaf-related updates in the near future, as we will be preparing to get this thing up and running as soon as humanly possible.


Quilled Tunes: "Crawling In The Dark" - Hoobastank

'Millstadt Day' Eve

Millstadt - pn./v.

1) pn. A city that complained about the opening of Total Greif's paintball field
*2) pn. Erich Mueller's nickname [as given by Beaver], due to his bitchy, whiney nature
3) v. to complain; to bitch; to whine excessively

[taken from the upcoming revised Bug Juice Dictionary of Terms and Phrases]

My condolences go out to those who have to attend things they would rather not attend today, and tomorrow. To everyone else, have an awesome time! To Erich and Toni, congratulations and I wish you both the best and all the happiness possible in the world.

:)

Heather is going on a girl's night tonight in Greenville, IL. I'm hanging with Scuba Steve and Ben.

@Heather: Drive safely and have fun, my love.

Last night, Heather and I went with Becky and her friends to the Budwieser Brewery to watch "Road Trip" outside. It was pretty damn cool. Thankfully, the weather outside was completely bearable, and I wasn't uncomfortable in the least. Joe, Angel, Jason, Nate, and Chuck were also there, and we talked to them a little while we were there.

@Nix: I'm sorry I didn't make it to karaoke - it was around 11 by the time we got home, and I was very tired. I totally appreciate the thought of reserving a song for me, and I'm definitely taking you up on that at the next opportunity...

This coming Sunday, we're going to be having people over. I'm not sure if we'll go anywhere, or just chill at our place, but it should be fun. Oh yes, speaking of us having people over to chill:

Our neighbors that live right below us have a definite problem with all the cigarettes that are tossed off the side of our balcony. I don't blame them. We have an ash tray, and Heather and I would request that those of you who smoke please use it, and please - PLEASE - do NOT throw your cigarettes off the balcony anymore. If any of you have any questions, don't hesitate to ask. My door is always open (even though I'm a total dick, ya know?)...

I won both "March Of The Pigs" Nine Inch Nails CDs, as well as the "Live" AND "Still" 2-CD set of "And All That Could Have Been" from Ebay. Needless to say, I'm done Ebaying for awhile now.

I've begun the arduous-yet-fun task of archiving and better organizing ALL of my Gravity Kills stuff. EAC is a godsend in terms of ripping those radio promo interview discs I have (no other program seemed to be able to do it). So far, all is going GREAT.

Speaking of Gravity Kills...there are whisperings on the old-but-not-yet-dead Gravity Kills message board that Jeff Scheel and Kurt Kerns have been working on a DVD - from Mr. Scheel himself, no less. While this might not be the end-all-beat-all of news bits to anyone else, to ME it is like discovering a gold mine!

On another front, we have some new DVDs in the collection. Just a few:

- Grumpy Old Men (Heather's)
- The Fan
- Sleepwalkers

Two of my very good friends need to be addressed:

@Andrea: Don't categorize yourself as a 'selfish human' like that. At times, you try way too hard to be liked; you also hate being left out of things (like guy's nights); and yeah, you do smother Nix a bit, but it's only because you care, not because you're "mean". You're a good person when it comes down to it, and you shouldn't lose sight of that.

@Nix: It was probably the beer giving voice to your darkest thoughts last night; because I know you're not one to just go off like that. True, there was a lot of stuff bottled up, but it was bottled because most of it was worthy of just muttering about and leaving it at that. Still, as your friend, I would think you still nonetheless owe Andrea an apology. She's given you a place to sleep; she bought you the Friday the 13th box set; she's carted you around to and from work and to various other places, spending gas and miles on her car. She's done for you, despite the fact that she drives you nuts sometimes, and she deserves the respect of an "I'm sorry" at least. She did NOT deserve to be berated to that extent, bro. At least, that's what I think.

That's not me saying that you had no right to be angry about the things you yelled at her for. That's not me saying that you're the "bad guy" in all of this, either. That's me being a friend - to you and Andrea both - and pointing out that despite all her faults and failings in regards to you and other things, that Hizzy is a good person at her core and a good FRIEND overall. And, booze-induced or not, it was still over the limit as to what she was deserving of.

@Hizzy & Nix: I love you guys. You're my buddies.


Quilled Tunes: "One Thing [Demo Version]" - Gravity Kills

Fucking Conservative Cocksmokers (FCC)

The following is an email that I received today in response to a petition I signed to the FCC on behalf of free speech:

"You are receiving this email in response to your inquiry to the FCC.

Thank you for your e-mail. Your views and comments are important to us. We appreciate you taking the time to forward them.

Rep Number : TSR57"


Translation:

"This is an generic mass email. We could give two fucks less about what you have to say, we will censor what we want, when we want, per the demands of the conservative moral minority.

Fuck you - and free speech - in your anal cavity with a jagged object, and have a Republican day!"


Not that it was at all surprising.

...as promised...

Fourth of July ended up being a lot of fun. Murph was having a party - which got cancelled, because no one showed up. Heather and I had invited some people over - which also got cancelled because everyone had decided to go to Murph's (even though, as it turns out, no one was really too hot on the idea in the first place). Enter Scott, who opened his place to those originally headed to Murph's, and called and personally invited Heather and I (for which we both love him for and thank him greatly; he even apologized unnecessarily, which I also appreciate).

There wasn't going to be a "bomb" this year. Corey just wouldn't let it die, and talked Scott into doing it after all. It was pretty cool.

The only downside is that I didn't get to drink any...but then again, maybe that's not such a bad thing.

So, here we are to today. The Hellraiser DVDs that I pointed Scott to turned out to be VHS bootleg transfers. Fuck. At least this fucker is going to be getting some negative feedback for leading bidders to believe it was an actual DVD and not just a shitty bootlegged copy. Scott's search continues...

If you head on over to the Mega-Forum (which you can easily access from the links list on the right OR by clicking on the title to this blog entry), and go into the "Brainshift" section, you can find a picture of me in a purple woman's tank top, posing very gayish.

Let me explain:

The night this happened, I was over at Joe and Angel's, and their AC was on the fritz. Needless to say, it was really fucking warm in there, so I ended up going shirtless. I commented that I felt stupid going shirtless in Joe's home, and said I'd be much cooler in something like Angel had on (which was a different tank top). Angel went to get the largest one she had, and I could barely breathe in this thing - mostly because Angel is comparable to a broomstick in frame, and I am not. Ever the fun-loving soul, I hammed it up for Joe's camera for a minute or two, doing retarded poses and such, despite the fact that I might've ripped the shirt apart if I stood up straight.

And that's the story. Hehe. Pretty damn funny, if you ask me. Go on and check it out. And, while you're there, consider exploring the other wonderful sections of the forum, won't you? :)


Quilled Tunes: "The Hand That Feeds (Ruff Mix)" - Nine Inch Nails

Lesson learned.

It is absolutely true that doing the right thing should always be the road to take.

However, if you do the right thing and it makes no difference; if all it does is generate some kind of unforeseen confrontation; if no one heeds a warning given - then "doing the right thing" becomes a moot point.

At least I know this now.

There will be a more upbeat blog entry later, I assure you all. :)

Happy Fourth of July everyone!

...something long overdue...

Quite a night last night, let me tell you. Scott beat me to the punch on this topic in his blog, and had some things to say about it...

Taken from Scott's blog:

"With the Beaver situation, I completely hold you responsible. You spoke out of turn, regardless of your intent or action, and when confronted about it began to cry and tried to confuse the issue with other things happening in your life. It's not your job to make everyone else happy. It's your job to make you happy. Maybe you haven't heard the rest of us clearly enough: We don't care to be friends with Erich; we don't want to be friends with Erich."

Hizzy, I'm sorry that you've got so much stress going on in your life right now. I, too, hope you can weather through it, and I will be supportive in any way I can for you, as your friend.

However, I agree with Scott. It was completely wrong of you to do what you did. It is not your job to mediate, meddle, or interject yourself into Beaver and Erich's business. Beaver had a VERY legitimate reason for wanting to wait to stir the shit pot on this issue, and now he doesn't have that option anymore. All because you wanted to "fix" your circle of friends.

I'm not mad at you for this. I have no personal stake in this matter. I do, however, think that it was a back-stab on Beaver on your part to do what you did. In trying to "do the right thing", you betrayed Beaver, when you had promised that you wouldn't say anything to him. You even said you knew you shouldn't have done it to Scuba, so my question is: If you knew it wasn't to be done, why did you chose to do it anyway? The only reason I'm annoyed by this is because Beaver doesn't deal with confrontation well at all, and this forces him to deal with it. And, contrary to popular opinion, I'm a really great friend and don't like to see my friends having to deal with shit like this.

You say you're sick and tired of all the fighting, and you just want everyone to get along? Fine.

Go bitch at ERICH. HE is the one that was the dickhead and chose to drop almost all of us. If he now has a problem with the fact that he's nearly friendless, he has no one to blame but himself. If he was sitting there on the verge of tears or whatever because of this issue, then maybe he should have thought about that before he chose to be a back-stabber.

You've been playing devil's advocate with this issue for longer than I want to think about. I've been silent about my dislike of that, mostly because I didn't wish to get into it with you. However, I will voice my opinions now:

I tried with that ungrateful motherfucker [Erich]. I invited him out to guy's nights, I called him, I called him and Toni after Toni had her accident. I made every effort. I didn't act unfairly to him in any fucking way. I stood up for him with none of the other guys (except for Dave) wanted anything to do with him. And he just kept doing what he was doing, and worse, blamed ME for all his woes in friendship and started talking shit on me.

And fuck the argument about how I didn't like Toni. I was never under contract to "like" Toni. I just personally did not like her, and that's MY personal choice. She was snobby to me every single time; I've seen Toni treat people like shit, with you, with Amber, with Kristin Merz; she's snobby and stuck up in a way I haven't seen since high school click groups; and I really don't like being talked down to, or treated like a "lesser". Fuck that shit. And, I was willing to be civil and cool with her because Erich was happy with her; I was unwaveringly nice and courteous to Toni at all times. The only thing I ever said to Erich was the truth about how I felt, and I tried talking to him man-to-man, and he made the choice to "drop" me, both because of my truthfulness and because I am supposedly too "boring" for his fucking expensive tastes in a good time.

I can't speak for anyone else's reasons, but Erich did this same thing to several of the other guys, and I don't blame them for feeling the way they do, and I completely condone their decisions to not have anything to do with him, and will defend those decisions whole-heartedly.

Bottom line, Erich is DONE. Sadly, you're ideal of a unified group with Erich involved is NOT going to happen. I'm NOT Erich's friend, I will NOT be Erich's friend ever again. He can fuck off and live...live with the fact that he lost almost all of his friends with his own immaturity. I am forgiving and I am fair to a fault, but even I have my limits and Erich surpassed those limits long ago with his self-centered, back-stabbing new way of life.

If Dave wants to be friends with him, that's cool with me. If Beaver wants to be friends with him, that's cool with me. But I don't want to be friends with Erich, and you all WILL be cool with it, or so help me God you will be hearing from me. Erich gave up a good friend in me, and he is going to have to live with that. So are you and everyone else who argues for a reconciliation.


Quilled Tunes: "What Do I Have To Do" - Stabbing Westward

...after a hiatus, I'm back with a BIG post...

The fun of meme continues.

01. Reply with your name and I will write something I like about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie/icon reminds me of you.
03. if I were to apply an o'clock to you, I'll tell you what it would be.
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal.

Next batch:

Anna
01. I like how positive and cheerful you are on the outside, even if you’re troubled or upset
02. “Beautiful Day” – U2
03. 8:00 A.M., the happiest part of the morning, IMO
04. “sprightly”
05. When we were the only two people that showed up to swords, and sword-fought in the rain, and you told me how much you really liked Tom a lot.
06. Hampster.
07. I’ve always wondered where you learned swords to be that good (which was actually [somewhat] answered at your wedding, when I saw that your dad had swords himself)…

Michelle
01. I like how to-the-point you are about your opinion and what you want.
02. Cher from Clueless
03. 7:00 PM, time to start a party
04. “faithful”
05. The double date where you, Heather, Ben, and me watched “Ringmaster”.
06. Beagle
07. I’ve always wondered how you and Heather can be so alike in absolutely everything…

Sorry about the lack of updates, folks. Things have been really busy as of late. Which makes updating all the more lucrative and entertaining for you, the readers. Or, if you really dislike long-winded blogs, it’s probably not so good of a thing for you. :)

Admittedly, some of it is stupid drama. I could just not post about it, but what fun would that be? It’s much more amusing to me to shed light upon it and expose the stupidity…however, since people may be getting sick of it, I will keep it short and sweet.

High School Hype:

- According to Beaver, Erich gets all huffy at the mere mention of my name. That’s funny as hell; especially since he constantly brags about he doesn’t concern himself with me at all. [BTW – I know Erich is brought up a lot, in and outside this blog, as well as at social gatherings. To paraphrase the way Nix so perfectly put it: “This Erich thing is brought up so much because it’s so ridiculous and stupid, and you can’t help but goof on it all.”]

- Jay is cheating on Lissan. And, there are also friends of Jay’s working behind the scenes to try to ruin their relationship (I won’t name names, but it’s pretty easy to figure out WHO they are if you think about it). I know Lissan won’t believe it, and there will be people saying that I’m just trying to attack Jay or something – nonetheless, Lissan doesn’t deserve to be played like that, especially with how devoted she is to Jay per her blog, and I figure I’m a target/scapegoat anyway; so I figure, “Why would I let fear of that stop me from saying something in protest to something wrong?” Exactly.

The bad part is, I don't personally have access to any kind of proof that any of this is true - I just know it's happening.

@Lissan: The only reason I’m saying anything is because I’m a friend, and you deserve better than to be cheated on and played.

Now that we have that out of the way…

We were going to have people over this Saturday (tomorrow). That is no longer the plan. Let me explain why: We got a letter from Heritage Estates, saying that our downstairs neighbors complained about noise on Friday. We felt it safe to lay low with the partying, so as not to prompt them to keep complaining. At any rate, we’re not having a party anymore, but we ARE going to organize SOMETHING – maybe going to see a movie; maybe karaoke at O’Leary’s Pub; maybe someone else would open their home for a hang-out spot, if nothing else. As soon as I know, you’ll all know, and we’ll all have fun. (Because I’m just that much of a dick. [And if you don’t understand that last thing, ask in the comments section and I shall explain.])

Thursday (yesterday), Beaver treated me to Growler’s Pub, and then we went to O’Leary’s for karaoke for a couple of hours. That was fun, as I haven’t been to Growler’s in forever.

I really need to devote some time to rebuilding my swords, and arrange a time to hang out with Tom and/or Jon somewhere in Missouri – be it St. Louis, Springfield, or Kansas City. I’m pretty sure I won’t be at 100% of what I once was, but I’m craving some combat. And that will also involve the rebuild of the infamous Buster Sword. I finally know how to solve some weight problems at the tip on it, and how to do it solidly.

Also, I really miss hanging out with Tom and Jon. Not many people outside my St. Louis group “get” me or accept me – and for some strange reason, I have a tough time assimilating to new groups and friendships, probably due to the tenure and comfort I had/have with the people here. Which says a lot, since I often wish Tom and Jon could have been in my wedding, had I had the spots open, and even more often wish the two of them lived closer so they could join us all at gatherings.

Which brings me to the other thing – working out. Working 8 to 5 is not very conducive to an intense weight-training schedule. I occasionally do curls and I’ve been trying to walk a little more, but that’s about it. There have been a couple of days where I hit it really hard, but keeping that up during the work week isn’t happening right now – mainly because I feel like lounging about and relaxing after work. I just need to get off my ass and workout like I used to. And blogging about it seems to be psyching me up a bit. I’d appreciate some supportive/motivating comments (maybe), if you guys feel like posting them.

I would also mention that Ben, Michelle’s husband, is also a guy that I really connect with as a friend, which like I said is rare. When we first met, I didn’t think we’d have much in common, but we do…especially in terms of movies, music, and just general likes and dislikes. He’s actually gotten me into partaking in and enjoying conventional sports, somewhat.

@Ben: You’re my boy, Blue! Also, sorry about pushing all the beer at you when we hang out, bro…I wasn’t thinkin’, and I’ll be better about that in the future.

I’ve had two people meme me so far. (In case you don’t know, “meme” is the neat little list I’ve been doing on people over the last couple of entries.) Here is what they say:

From Jon (Bitter The Clown):

Steve, The Almighty Quill!

01. You are fiercely protective and loyal to your friends.
02. For some reason, the nWo theme music.
03. 6:00 AM. I always imagine you getting up early to train.
[Coincidentally, THIS comment is also something that is psyching me up, and prompted the above inclusion. – Quill]
04. Fair.
05. When we made my staff for foam sword club, and then proceeded to hit each other in the nuts.
06. Silverback gorilla. The alpha male.
07. What were you like in high school? Judging from your blog, I get the impression that you’ve changed a lot since then.

From Nix:

01. I like your smart-ass attitude.
02. KMFDM A Drug Against War
03. 8:00 pm - Time to hook up with me and Spawn (estimated time)
04. "Forgiving"
05. Pevely, man. Definitely Pevely.
06. Duh, Rhino.
07. M.C. Hammer? (just kidding!)

My Nine Inch Nails collection is looking pretty impressive now. Thanks to Ebay. I’m still missing various halos, but I’m closer than I was by a long shot. Also, thanks to my wonderful wife, who is being so cool about getting the stuff I put bids on. She has a habit of stressing about money, and the fact that she’s being so cool shows not only how great a wife she is, but also how much better she’s getting at not being so “anal” about money worries (especially since we are far from having to worry about money at all). I love you, baby.

Next weekend is the most special weekend EVER – the weekend of our wedding anniversary. It’s been almost two years. Time really fucking flies, doesn’t it? Not to sound all campy and cliché, but it really does seem like just yesterday that we were dancing the night away at our reception. I’d like to again thank all of you that were there and celebrated with us. To the people whom our wedding was before their time, I wish you had been there, but I’m glad to have you with us now all the same. Wow, that really DID sound campy and cliché. Sheesh.

@Scott: Dude…you NEED to win that camera. Seriously. Fuck whoever else is bidding…pawn your SOUL if you have to.

I have no idea what’s going on for 4th of July. For that matter, I’m not very clear on what WE’RE doing either, mainly because I only heard about one or two options so far. I guess I need to talk to Heather and see what we both feel like doing this year.

That’s pretty much it for now. I could post a shit load of blog features and increase the scroll time on this thing exponentially, but I surmise you’ve all had enough. Later, Quillmaniacs!


Quilled Tunes: “Hey Man Nice Shot” – Filter