Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Disclaimer: This blog entry contains content some might find objectionable. Read at your own discretion.

As I eluded to in the previous entry, I learned some interesting things over the weekend.

Number one on the list is Erich’s latest theory: The reason I don’t like Toni is because she’s going to be getting her Masters degree, which would make her more successful than I am at a younger age. I’m apparently jealous of this because I’m competitive, and have to beat everyone at everything.

LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The only “problem” I ever had with Toni was that she’s snobby and always treated me with a very “I’m better than you” regard. I could care less if Toni got five different Doctorate degrees at age 12. I have my B.S. in Construction Management; I have a wonderful marriage, and a wonderful job; I have great friends (and many of them, unlike Erich); I have my health. I’m overly content, and I’m certainly NOT trying to compete with anyone, especially Toni. (Maybe if I aspired to be immature and wanted to treat people like they were less than me, I would.)

Moving on to the next, more involved, matter…Saturday, Beaver called us to inform us of yet ANOTHER stupid conspiracy being suggested to “trick” us.

According to Beaver, Kristin Merz told him it would be a good idea to invite Heather and myself to a couple’s night. Unbeknownst to us, it wouldn’t REALLY be a couple’s night. Instead, everyone else (meaning the side of this group that has an obvious problem with maturity and adulthood) would be in on the “joke” – only the girls would be present, and none of the guys would be there. Then, Heather would be bitched out by the girls for bringing me along. Apparently, Kristin thought this would be a really ‘funny’ thing to do.

(Note: The above is, as I said, according to Beaver. Kristin, if you read this and have issue with it, you probably should talk to Beaver, and explain whatever needs explaining to us.)

I can’t even begin to point out how utterly sad and retarded this “idea” is, not to mention horribly mean to Heather.

I understand that something like this is bound to have some posting and lobbying on Kristin’s behalf (i.e. she wouldn’t do that; she’s not that kind of person; etc.), and also things to the opposite effect. My reasoning is, “I can only fight what I can see.” If you have issue with Kristin being named the mastermind of this “plan”, don’t come to me with it – I’m not the one who named her as such.

Regardless, it’s very apparent at this point that Heather is definitely being considered my Achilles heel – a way to “get” to me in some way.

I’ll say it again, this time in a much more peaceable manner (what follows next is directed ONLY at those people who are behind any and all of this high school bullshit…it’s just reading material for everyone else):

I am not someone that you guys want to push to the breaking point. I am against using violence or being malicious in any way – but I’ve not above it, especially when it comes to defending my wife, and my family and friends. Oh, sure…people would probably think I’m just talking out of my ass as always. But I’m not.

Even though violence and malice is never the answer, when it comes down to it some people just need a good, solid ass kicking – or at least a damned good chewing out – before they’ll stop. I have been and will continue to do everything I can to avoid something like that…but don’t think for a second that I won’t do it if push comes to shove. And please don’t think that I’m not a threat to any of you in a fight, because I am – in a MAJOR way – whether you want to admit it or not.

I can handle being attacked and made into a scapegoat. I accept the fact that I’m not very popular with some people, even if the reasoning behind that is unintelligent bullshit. I can even take Heather and my other loved ones being assaulted unduly – with a limited-in-size grain of salt. I can do this because I “get” it – you guys just can’t be mature. You can’t be adult. As the adult in these confrontations, it’s my responsibility to be the bigger person – a responsibility that I happily accept, given the fact that I would really fucking hate to be in your shoes, to be THAT childish, cruel, and selfish.

Let me tell you what I really think. I think Kristin, Erich, Toni – and anyone else who participate in shit like this – are truly pathetic. I think they all need to be fitted for diapers to go along with the babyish way they conduct themselves every single day. They’re willing to go and hurt people who don’t deserve it, just to get some sort of revenge. I didn’t think it was possible to be such a colossal idiot like this, but I’ve been proven wrong by all of you assholes – I gave you guys WAY too much credit. I thought that I could bow out like a man and things could be civil – but you guys just can’t stop being selfish and immature and ruthless.

@Erich: You ditched your closest friends for bullshit reasons – friends that were there for you and stood by you in your more desperate times. You named ME as the ringleader and cause for you being “ditched”, when I was the one of the very last – and VERY few – who were still lobbying for you. You made your own misery. Now fucking live with it and take responsibility for your actions, and get over – and go fuck – yourself.

@Toni: As I said, I only had issue with your snobbish tendencies. (I’ve seen you treat people like they’re beneath you, I’ve experienced it myself – nothing you can say can prove otherwise, because your actions have shown your true colors). Now that you’ve chosen to involve yourself in plans that use Heather to get to me, that has changed drastically. You, too, can get over – and go fuck – yourself.

@Kristin: I SERIOUSLY hope that all of this is bullshit, for your sake. I would have NEVER thought that YOU would be behind anything like this (but then, I’ve been surprised a lot lately in that way). You have always been nice and kind to both Heather, and me, and I never had a problem with you before. IF it’s true, you can go fuck yourself.

I’m really important to you guys (whoever that is). You come up with these elaborate plans and schemes to try to get under my skin – even going so far as to USE my own wife’s feelings to try to upset me. You are not important to me. I hear about all this bullshit, the things that are said – and while I DO wonder just WHY in the world I would deserve to be attacked like that, I laugh. I laugh at all of you. I laugh because despite the fact that you seem to dislike me so much, you still make me a focus in your lives - you still make me important to you. I laugh because I’m a better person than you all, I’m above this shit, and the “joke” is really on YOU.

I’m not the one who’s looking like a complete and utter crybaby. I’m not the one that people are whispering about how high schoolish and immature they’re being. I’m not the one who’s losing credibility and good friends. I’m not the one resorting to things like this – in fact, I’m nowhere near doing anything like this. As I said – I’m the bigger and better person.

It’s something new every goddamned week. I know many people who are just so fucking tired of all of it. Imagine how I feel. It’s gotten to the point where I don’t even DO anything to provoke it – it just happens anyway.

It must be so nice to be able to pin all of the bad shit in your life on one person. If you guys aren’t VERY careful from this point on, it won’t be so nice anymore. I’ll see to that.

And yes – I could have ignored it. I could have just shrugged it all off. Believe me, I usually do. There have been many other things said and done that I have not posted about. The point of all of this was to put the spotlight on it and publicly chastise it. “They” deserve it at this point.

Quill’s Final Thought (of the Blog):

‘Martyr’ doesn’t even define what I am at this point.

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Quill’s “Conclusive, Vocabulary-Filled Sentence(s) That Fits the Topic of This Blog”:

trumpery \TRUM-puh-ree\ noun

1 : worthless nonsense
*2 : trivial or useless articles : junk

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marplot \MAHR-plaht\ noun

: one who frustrates or ruins a plan or undertaking by meddling

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paste \PAIST\ verb
1 : to strike hard at
*2 : to beat or defeat soundly


Surprisingly, Beaver was the marplot of this most recent trumpery plotted against Steve and Heather. Someone is going to get pasted if it continues.

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Quilled Link(s) of the Blog:
Several people I know could really benefit from visiting this link…
  • Adolescence/Teenagers: The Reality of Adolescence


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    Quilled Tunes: “Dropping Plates” – Disturbed

    Quote of the Blog: “Maturity: Be able to stick with a job until it is finished. Be able to bear an injustice without having to get even. Be able to carry money without spending it. Do your duty without being supervised.” – Ann Landers

    Memorial Day replay

    I had a very awesome and interesting Memorial Day holiday weekend.

    Friday I got off work very early, around 1:30 PM. After Heather got home, we had dinner and then went to see a movie at the cheap show. "The Pacifier" was both better and not as good as I thought it would be.

    Saturday I went to the Pevely flea market with Nix. We got lost on the way there, thanks to Hizzy's "wonderful" knack for giving driving directions. We found lots of props and stuff for the Loaf movie, and I picked up some stuff for me, and some things for Heather. After that, Nix and I ate lunch at my place, we met Scuba for dinner at O'Charley's, and we went to Amber's house party. I talked to Beaver there, and I was in a generous enough mood to hear him out and talk. He seems to understand completely, and was apologetic for everything he did, so...right now, we're cool. Kind of a probationary thing, really. IF this turns out to bite me in the ass again, I figure it will only hurt Beav's reputation. Let's hope it doesn't (for his sake).

    I also found out some interesting things that are going on behind the scenes, as well as some interesting theories being thrown around, on Saturday. I will elaborate on these things at a later time. I will do so not because any of it bothers me, but to ridicule and put the spotlight on it for everyone to see the truth of things. (Hey, I've got an idea...)

    Sunday I went to the Cardinals game where they played against the Washington Nationals. It was me, Ben, Jeremy, and Matt. We had AWESOME seats - section 249, seats 1 - 4, right behind home plate. I got these tickets FREE from my boss. It would have been a lot better for us if the Cards had won, but we lost 3-2, and pretty quickly in the last inning. We're talking maybe three minutes. Dammit.

    Monday was a barbeque at my parents' house. My aunt and uncle are in town visiting from New Mexico, along with my two cousins. We ate good food, talked, looked at our wedding pictures (all of them), and played "Battle of the Sexes" - where the men WON for once. Shocking! Then we left, got dinner from the store, and watched "Signs" before going to bed.

    And that was my eventful, fun-filled weekend.

    Friday, May 27, 2005

    Tomorrow is a trip to the flea market in Pevely with Nix to hunt for things we might use for the Loaf movie. The producing team of myself and Nix – hereby known as QUIX Producing – will be in full effect. (This is NOT going to be a decade-plus long project like “Star-Trek Wars”…I would stab myself in the face if it was. It WILL come to pass in a reasonable amount of time.)

    I’m about due to get some new music. I will be trying to buy some more actual CDs in the next month or so. I need the following newest albums: NIN, Static-X, hed (PE), Fear Factory, KMFDM. They will be mine…oh yes. They will be mine.

    We got some new DVDs added to our already-huge collection:

    Van Wilder (Unrated)
    Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle (Unrated)
    Mystery Men
    Superstar
    Predator 2
    Seinfeld: Season 4
    King of the Hill: Season 4
    Conan: The Complete Collection
    Without A Paddle
    Legally Blonde
    Zoolander (SE)

    A 3-day weekend is going to be nice, but really weird. I’m so used to being at work during the weekdays. And I enjoy it. It’s a great feeling, loving your job and what you do… :)

    Oh, and Heather’s first few classes teaching at New Lady Fitness have gone excellent. I’m not surprised; Heather was BORN to dance, and she has a life-long passion for teaching, so that’s a one-two combo for success right there. Plus, Heather is naturally awesome…

    Speaking of awesome…we’re getting DSL (thank you, Heather)! No more shitty dial-up for us, and better yet, my computer will be online as well. The downloading of various things can begin once more. Also, archiving of CDs using online track listings.

    Oh and hey! - the House of Representatives passed that embryonic stem cell bill despite our "president" putting a veto on it and some uber-right-wing resistence. In your conservative, extremist face, George W. Bitch!!!!!! Viva freedom! :)

    Well, that's all for now, kids. You have my permission to leave the blog now. You're welcome.

    Quilled Tunes: "Too Much Stereo" - The Urge

    Vocabulary time!!!

    exacerbate \ig-ZASS-er-bayt\ verb

    : to make more violent, bitter, or severe

    Example sentence:
    A nasty rash caused Jenna's arm to itch all over, and the doctor said that scratching it would only exacerbate the problem.

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    Grand Guignol \grahng-gheen-YAWL (the "ng" is not pronounced, but the vowel is nasalized)\ noun

    : dramatic entertainment featuring the gruesome or horrible

    Example sentence:
    Part fairy tale and part Grand Guignol, the film had a bizarre overall effect that many viewers found very disturbing.

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    resile \rih-ZYLE\ verb

    : recoil, retract; especially : to return to a prior position

    Example sentence:
    The politician said he was sorry that his comments had caused offense, but he stopped short of resiling from his position.

    Thursday, May 26, 2005

    OMFG!!!

    You know that little killer tsunami-generating earthquake in Asia? The one responsible for well over 150,000 deaths throughout the region?

  • Sumatra quake longest ever recorded - Temblor big enough to 'vibrate the whole planet’


  • This thing was big enough to vibrate the entire earth in three hours time, momentarily interrupted the axis of the planet, and purportedly displaced the city of St. Louis an entire inch.

    Jesus.

    Quill’s Final Thought (of the Blog):

    Nature don’t fuck around, does it?

    Wednesday, May 25, 2005

    ...rock on!!!...

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    That's right, folks. This is my tribute to all the rockin' bands out there past, present, and future. Feel free to use this neat little "metal horns" image in your own blogs or whatnot - but remember, you saw it here first. :)


    Quilled Tunes: "Suffocate" - Gravity Kills

    ...a long time ago in a galaxy far, far away...

    Things are good. :)

    I'm being give more and more to do at work, which gives me experience and knowledge (not to mention it's fun for me - I love it), which will [eventually] benefit me monetarily.

    Yesterday, I went to Scott's place in the late afternoon, had lunch with him and Corey, and then check out his bathroom. He's considering remodelling it, and I was there on business taking notes and drawing sketches. There's no guarantee he's going to go with LaClair, but we'll see what happens.

    I got to learn how to play Texas Hold 'Em (poker). I'm not terrible at it, as it turns out; I just need to work on knowing when to fold and when to bet, so I last a bit longer. Getting lucky with the cards is only a small part of things.

    After that, Heather arrived around 5:00 and we went to dinner. Heather hadn't known if she was going or not, but it ended up working out that way.

    We watched Star Wars Ep. III - Revenge of the Sith. It was a bootlegged copy, but I felt okay about watching it because I'm going to go with my dad to see it either way. (Lucas will get his grubby mitts on my money, so don't worry.) It was good. Really good. If only the last two movies were anywhere near that good...but they sucked, and RotS didn't suck at all.

    I got to talk with Nix about Loaf film matters, and I'm going to be doing my best to get the information we need about supplies, FX, equipment, etc.

    @Nix: Congratulations on your "successful failure". ;)

    Oh, and the lamenting is done. Just thought I'd let you all know. ;)

    17 days left until the party event of the year takes place. Prepare.

    Quilled Tunes: "Iris" - Goo Goo Dolls

    Tuesday, May 24, 2005

    I love it when things are busy around the office. :)

    Senator Boxer's Floor Speech on Judicial Filibusters
    05/17/2005

    Congressional Record
    United States Senate
    May 17, 2005

    Mrs. BOXER: Mr. President, I have asked for this time so I could talk about the issue that is really hanging over the head of the Senate, as Senator Baucus said when he gave his support to the highway and transit bill: What we can do when we work together. What we can do when we set aside the partisanship. What we can do when we work for our people, rather than make up a phony crisis about the courts and threaten to change more than 200 years of tradition and threaten a nuclear option--which was named by the Republicans, by the way, when they thought about it because it is so vicious, it hurts so hard, it has such fallout that it will change the very nature of the Senate. But more importantly, it will change the way we now can protect the people of the United States of America.

    This is a very simple chart. It shows the numbers 208 to 10; 208 represents the number of judges President Bush has been able to get voted into office as a result of actions of this Congress since he got into power. Two hundred eight of his judges have gone through. This Senate has stopped 10, 10 of his nominees. Actually, some of my colleagues remind me now it is really only five because some of them are no longer up for judgeships or we have relented on a couple of them, but I am going to be fair to my colleagues on the other side of the aisle and paint the worst possible picture in terms of the number we have stopped--10.

    This is a 95-percent success rate. I ask the people of this country to think about what it would mean in their lives if they got 95 percent of what they wanted. If their child came home on a regular basis with 95 percent from school? That is an A+. If their spouse said, ``Honey, I agree with you,'' 95 percent of the time and you got your way 95 percent of the time, you would be smiling.

    When you went to work and you had a pretty tough boss, and your boss called you into the office and he said, ``You know, you are a fine worker, Barbara. You are a great worker. As a matter of fact, I have looked over your work, and I have agreed with you 95 percent of the time,'' I think that is the moment I would ask for a raise.

    If you get what you want 95 percent of the time, you should have a broad smile on your face. You should feel good about yourself. You should feel great about yourself.

    But you know what, if you wanted 100 percent all the time, if you never wanted to give 1 inch of space, if you demanded that your child get 100 percent every time, you would not be happy. I call it the arrogance of power.

    What we are seeing in the United States of America is an arrogance of power. My colleagues--and particularly the White House--are not happy getting 208 of their judges but not getting 10 of their judges; they are not happy with 95 percent results. What do they do? They say: We want to change the rules of the Senate. All right, what are the rules of the Senate? The rules of the Senate say on a nomination as important as a judge, which is very key, following the Constitution, which says a President must take the advice and get the consent of the Senate, there can be extended debate on that judge. To stop that extended debate, it requires not 51 votes; it is 60 votes. That is how we have operated for a very long time.

    By the way, it is important to note, it was even harder to get a nomination through. For a while, it was 67 votes. Before that, there was endless debate. You could never stop debate, ever. We have eased that rule.

    We believe it is important for a lifetime appointment to the courts--and these are very important positions. They are paid a lot of money. They get a great retirement, not like United Airlines, they will get their retirement. We believe they ought to be terrific--mainstream, at least. And to stop extended debate, they have to pass a little bit of a higher threshold: 60 votes. Some of these nominees are so outside the mainstream they cannot get 60 votes. So the Republicans said: We will just change the rules. They looked in their little rule book, and they found it takes 67 votes to change the rules of the Senate, and they said: My goodness, we do not have that. Maybe we have 51 with the Vice President voting with us--he votes on a tie vote--but we do not have 67 votes. So let's go about it in a way that no one would ever expect. We will raise what we call a point of order, have a ruling of the Chair, and the Chair will rule--and it will be Dick Cheney--that the Senate can no longer filibuster judges. Then we will have a little disagreement over that. They are getting 51 votes, they think. Maybe not. We do not know.

    That is the nuclear option. A lot of my colleagues on the Republican side are nervous about it, and they will wind up, if they get 51 votes, changing the rules of the Senate without the 67 votes.Imagine what would happen at a baseball game if in the middle of the game someone said there is no such thing as a home run, or it is an out if the ball bounces first and you throw the person out at first base. People would go nuts. You do not change the rules in the middle of the game. That is not the American way. And you do not do it in a backdoor effort. I have voted to change the rules, but I do not try a sneaky way. I said you have to get 67 votes to do it. If you do not get the 67 votes, the rules are the same.

    I take my time on this because it is important the American people understand what the Republican leadership is trying to do. They tried to change the rules in the House because they did not want to investigate Tom DeLay, who is the leader over there. They changed the rules. It was so shocking, they backtracked after months of the American people saying: That is not the American way. The people of the United States of America are saying it today. They are saying it by 60 to 70 percent of the vote: Do not change the way the Senate has done its business.

    Anyone who saw the movie ``Mr. Smith Goes to Washington'' knows that Jimmy Smith in that film was able to stand on his feet and be heard for a righteous and just cause. A little bit later, I will show an example of a judge we stopped and why it was important to stop her.

    Let the American people and my colleagues understand. Here is what is important. This should not be about political parties, folks. When Franklin Delano Roosevelt was President--as we all know, a Democrat, considered one of the greatest Presidents ever--he made a huge mistake in his Presidency. He wanted to pack the Supreme Court. He did not like their decisions.

    At the time, the Democrat party had 74 seats in the Senate. They could have done it in a heartbeat. All they needed was just a few to peel off, they had it. What did they do? Democrats in those days, colleagues, stood up to the most popular President in history. He had gotten more than 60 percent of the vote. They said: Mr. President, we think you are great, but we are not going to pack the courts just because you feel they are not upholding all of your New Deal. It is not fair. We need a check and balance.

    I know young people watching or listening to this debate understand what we are talking about. The checks and balances built into our Constitution--the courts check the legislature and the courts check the executive branch. What my colleagues on the other side of the aisle, save a few, want to do is take away that check and balance, have one party rule. And, oh my goodness, they did not get enough of what they want--208 to 10--and they are throwing a fit and trying to change the rules of the Senate. That is wrong and doing it in a way that is absolutely contrary to what we say has to be done to change the rules, which is 67 votes.

    Now, the next thing they will say is there have never been any judge filibusters until the Democrats. We have never done that, say the Republicans, we are so good we have never done it.

    Let me tell the truth, the facts. Who started the filibuster in recent times? The Republicans. In 1968, Abe Fortas, to be Chief Justice of the Supreme Court--Democrats' choice--he did not get the required two-thirds at that time. They need 67 votes of Members supporting Abe Fortas. Republicans started it.

    Then we had a filibuster for a while against William Rehnquist, but it was dropped; Stephen Breyer to be judge on the First Circuit Court of Appeals in 1980; Harvie Wilkinson to be judge on the Fourth Circuit Court of Appeals in 1984; in 1986, Sydney Fitzwater to be a judge; in 1992, Edward Earl Carnes; in 1994, Lee Sarokin; and in 1999, Brian Theodore Stewart. In 2000, two Californians were filibustered by my Republican friends: Richard Paez and Marsha Berzon. When we hear the Republicans say, we have not been, ever, for a filibuster, just say, you are making it up. They are making it up. Here they admit to a filibuster. Here is Bob Smith, Republican Senator, March 7, 2000:

    ... it is no secret that I have been the person who has filibustered these two nominations, Judge Berzon and Judge Paez.

    So when the Republicans say there has never been a Republican filibuster, they are making it up. Of course there has been.

    By the way, that was their right.

    Orrin Hatch:

    Indeed, I must confess to being somewhat baffled that, after a filibuster is cut off by cloture, the Senate could still delay a final vote on the nomination.

    Senator Orrin Hatch at that time, I believe, was the chairman of the committee.

    Again, Senator Bob Smith:

    So don't tell me we haven't filibustered judges and that we don't have the right to filibuster judges on the floor of the Senate. Of course we do. That is our constitutional role.

    Here we have a Republican Senator leading a filibuster against two of President Clinton's nominees and saying the filibuster is the constitutional role, and now we have Republicans saying: We have never, ever been involved in a filibuster.

    I will talk about one of the nominees the Democrats have filibustered. I need to explain to my colleagues, and hopefully to others, how out of the mainstream some of these folks are who George Bush has nominated. Remember, we stopped 10. This is one of the 10.

    Janice Rogers Brown--way outside of the mainstream to the extreme.
    This is one of her comments:

    Where government moves in, community retreats, civil society disintegrates, and our ability to control our own destiny atrophies. The result is: Families under siege; war in the streets; unapologetic expropriation of property; the precipitous decline of the rule of law; the rapid rise of corruption; the loss of civility and the triumph of deceit.

    This is what she thinks of our great Nation because we have a Government that does build the roads, that does help people out when they are in a bad situation, that may come in and say, yes, it is not a good idea to sell cigarettes to a kid who is 13. This is terrible. This is awful.

    The "precipitous decline of the rule of law; the rapid rise of corruption."

    The result is a debased, debauched culture which finds moral depravity . . . A virtue.

    Now, I don't know about you, but I think the minimum wage is a part of America. Colleagues could decide they do not want to raise it for a couple of years. Right now, sadly, it hasn't been raised for a very long time, but I think most Americans think we are protected by the minimum wage.

    This is what she said about the minimum wage, Janice Rogers Brown. I take a minute to say Janice Rogers Brown has served in the California Supreme Court since 1996. Her life story is amazing. It is remarkable. What I don't like is what she is doing to other people's lives. Her story is amazing, but for whatever reason, she is hurting the people of this country, particularly, right now, in my State. Of course, the President wants to move her over to Washington, DC, court.

    She calls Supreme Court decisions upholding protections like the minimum wage and the 40-hour workweek ``the triumph of our own socialist revolution.'' I don't know or understand how anybody could think the 40-hour workweek or the minimum wage is socialism. She obviously does. She obviously would overturn it.

    She accuses senior citizens of--and I hope everyone over the age of 55 will listen to what Janice Rogers Browns thinks of people over 55--she accuses senior citizens of ``blithely cannibalizing their grandchildren because they have a right to get as much free stuff'' as the political system permits them to extract. Free stuff? Is she talking about Social Security? That is not free. People pay into Social Security, and they deserve to get their monthly check. Free stuff. Senior citizens ``blithely cannibalize their grandchildren.'' I resent those comments as a grandmother. I would walk off a bridge for my grandson--and he knows it. I resent her painting of senior citizens.

    That is why we held her up. That is why she is not sitting on the court today. Now, she may get there if my colleagues have their way. Let them explain why she would rule to overturn the minimum wage and the 40-hour workweek and overturn Social Security. It will be on their backs. We have stopped this woman from going further because of her decisions.

    She declares:

    Big government is . . . The drug of choice for multinational corporations and single moms, for . . . rugged Midwestern farmers and militants senior citizens.

    She is back to that again. What is she afraid of--that some senior citizen will attack her? The crime rate among senior citizens is pretty low. Militant senior citizens? Give me a break. And we get accused of holding up decent people? This goes on.

    I will go on with the story of Janice Rogers Brown--way outside the mainstream to the extreme. She argued a law that provided housing assistance to displaced elderly, disabled, and low-income people was unconstitutional. Her dissent said, because the city of San Francisco had a law that helped these disabled, elderly people, she said that "private property . . . is now entirely extinct in San Francisco."

    What world does she live in? Has she tried to buy a house in San Francisco? It is the hottest real estate market in the country. But she says private property is entirely extinct. Let her go try to find some private property to buy in San Francisco. This woman is living on another planet, and we were right to stop her from getting on the bench. Whether it takes 60 votes or 51 votes to stop her, we are going to try to stop her.

    Let's go on with more of her record. How about this? She said that a manager could use racial slurs against his Latino employees. Now, I say to every human being out there: What do we know about the workplace? We know people should feel OK about themselves in the workplace, that we work better together when we respect each other. Janice Rogers Brown said a manager could use racial slurs against his Latino employees--extreme in the main.

    She argued that a message sent by an employee to coworkers criticizing a company's employment practices was not protected by the first amendment. In other words, you can't use your e-mail to write anything about your employer to other employees, although she said the corporations can say whatever they want any time of the day.

    You know now why we have stopped Janice Rogers Brown. But we have more reasons, if you are not convinced.

    Even when it comes to protecting shareholders, she is not fair. Anyone who owns a share of stock, listen to this one. She argued that a company could not be held liable for stock fraud by its employees who were offered a stock purchase plan since the stock was traded between third parties on the open market. So she comes out against the shareholders and protecting the companies.

    Here is the amazing thing. Let me reiterate about Janice Rogers Brown. She serves on the California Supreme Court. There are six Republicans on the court--she is a Republican--and one Democrat. She dissented more than a third of the time. You would think she would have been happy to be with colleagues of her own party. She stood alone 31 times. And when you hear these cases, you will be amazed at where she stood. In other words, she went against five Republicans and one Democrat 31 times, and stood alone.

    Let's check those cases out. How about this one: Rape victims; she was the only member of the court to vote to overturn the conviction of a rapist of a 17-year-old girl because she believed the victim gave mixed messages to the rapist. She stood alone on the side of a rapist, alone as a woman on a court that has six Republicans and one Democrat. Here is another case where she voted alone, the only member of the court to oppose an effort to stop the sale of cigarettes to children. It was a case where the supermarkets didn't want to be responsible. If somebody came up, maybe 13, maybe 12, maybe 11, maybe 14, I want a pack of cigarettes, she ruled against an effort to stop the sale of cigarettes to children. What planet is she living on now? If it was in the 1800s and we didn't know about cigarettes and what they do to you is one thing. But now is another thing. She stood alone.

    I talked about senior citizens. I told you she is afraid of militant senior citizens. That is what she calls them. I told you that she said they cannibalize their grandchildren. Well, she was the only member of the court to find that a 60-year-old woman who was fired from her hospital job could not sue. This is the amazing thing she said, as she stood alone in this decision. A 60-year-old woman was fired from her hospital job. She said she has no right to sue based on age discrimination. This is her comment:

    [D]iscrimination based on age does not mark its victims with a stigma of inferiority and second class citizenship.

    Really? How do you think you would feel if you were fired because you were too old and suddenly that stigma was attached to you and you lost our livelihood because maybe you had to work at age 60, as you waited for our Social Security check, which is a whole other issue. We hope we win that battle, too. But let me tell you, it makes it hard to win the battle of Social Security if you have on the court someone who calls senior citizens militant. It is going to be tough. That is why we have held her up.

    By the way, her position in this case is contrary to both State and Federal law. This is one of the people we have stopped.

    Just think about what we have been trying to protect the American people from. How about this? This is a woman who not only voted with a rapist against a 17-year-old girl, she was the only member of the court who voted to strike down a State antidiscrimination law that provided a contraceptive drug benefit to women. She was the only one. The State of California had required an equal health benefit to women and said: Your insurance will cover contraception because--guess what they decided. They decided it was better to avoid abortion, to cut down abortion, to make abortion rare. So they said they would give a benefit of contraception. She stood alone and tried to strike that down. Imagine.

    She has been bad for workers. She was the only member of the court who voted to bar an employee from suing for sexual harassment because she signed a standard worker's compensation release form. Now, all of you probably know what that means. If you go for a job, you are usually covered by workman's compensation. But this woman had signed a waiver and said: I won't file a worker's comp claim. She didn't file a worker's comp claim, but she did file a sexual harassment claim because she was being sexually harassed. Every member of the court stood with the woman who was sexually harassed but Janice Rogers Brown. Six Republicans, one Democrat, and she stood alone again against a worker who was facing sexual harassment. The whole rest of the court agreed with the worker.

    She was the only member of the court to find that a disabled worker who was the victim of employment discrimination did not have the right to raise past instances of discrimination that occurred. In other words, there was a disabled worker who filed a lawsuit, had a big story to tell about the past. She was the only judge to say: I don't agree with the worker; I agree with the company.

    Here is another one. Janice Rogers Brown, bad on discrimination, the only member of the court to find that a State fair housing commission could not award certain damages to housing discrimination victims. She stood alone again.

    Domestic violence: The Republicans want to put on the court a woman who stood alone 31 times against her fellow Republicans in cases like this--the only member of the court to find that a jury should not hear expert testimony in a domestic violence case about battered women's syndrome. We all know about battered women's syndrome, where a woman is beaten senseless by a boyfriend--in this case, probably a spouse--and later minimizes what he did to her. And the law in our State says it is valid evidence. If she reached out and she did something to prosecute this attacker, an explanation about battered women's syndrome will help her.

    She was the only one who stood alone and said: I don't want to hear any expert testimony on this. She stood alone.

    I ask unanimous consent for an additional 30 minutes.

    The PRESIDING OFFICER: Without objection, it is so ordered.

    Mrs. BOXER: Here is one. I want us all to remember the Enron case, a case where counties and cities and individuals were ripped off and went into debt--in our State, billions of dollars--by Enron, Enron who said they would deliver electricity and then made believe there was a shortage and jacked up the price billions of dollars. People went bankrupt and counties went bankrupt and the State went in the hole $9 billion. She was the only member of the court to find that a county could not sue a utility company for illegal price fixing that had substantially increased the county's costs for natural gas.

    So here she is again hurting consumers, hurting local government, and standing alone in the process.

    Here she is on a right to a fair trial. This is interesting. The courts have ruled over and over that when a criminal defendant comes into court before there is a verdict of guilt, you can't bring that criminal defendant in in shackles and in a prison uniform because you put in the jury's mind that the person is guilty. So you give the chance to the person to come in dressed as a civilian, then you find out the details and you find them guilty or innocent.

    In this case, she was the only member of the court to find nothing improper about requiring a criminal defendant to wear a 50,000-volt stun belt while testifying, the only member of the court. That is how outside the mainstream she is.

    If we could put back up the 208-to-10 number while I give the rest of my remarks, that would be fine.

    What do we have here? We have a circumstance that 10 times out of 218, Democrats believed the President's choices were really harmful to the American people, would really be harmful to them, whether it is their minimum wage, whether it is their 40-hour workweek, whether it is the ability of all of us to protect our kids from cigarettes, whether it is to protect victims of violence, it goes on and on. You have seen just a handful of the cases.

    So when somebody says to you: Well, those Democrats, they are blocking everybody--and if you listen to my Republican colleagues, that is what you would think--no, we have blocked 10. We have approved 208. In reality, now the number is 5, but circumstances have changed. I will lean over backwards to be fair and say it is 10. That is 95 percent. In each case of these 10 you will find out why we have done it. It is because these nominees are so outside the mainstream that they will hurt the people we represent.

    Why is it important to say that a judge needs to have a 60-vote threshold to end extended debate? It is because it is a lifetime appointment. The President is supposed to work with the Senate before choosing a nominee, which he has not done, not on our side of the aisle. I tried hard with Mr. Gonzales when he was White House counsel. I met with him on numerous occasions, and he said: Senator Boxer, give me some names of Republicans. I gave him so many names of good Republicans for the Ninth Circuit.

    I said: Look, these people are mainstream Republicans. They will fly right through here.

    No, they couldn't be bothered with that. I know Senator Feinstein has done the same, given them the names of people who would be quite acceptable. Who do they send us? People such as Janice Rogers Brown, people who are so outside the mainstream that we don't deserve to be here if we don't raise the arguments.

    Now, what you are also going to hear is the Republicans have called this the nuclear option. They have renamed it the constitutional option. That is humorous--if you want to find humor in any of this. That is like saying that clock over there is a table. I suppose if I told you that often enough, maybe you would believe me that once upon a time that clock was a table. But the clock is a clock and the nuclear option is the nuclear option. It was named by the Republicans. But it is not popular out there because of the connotation, so they are trying to change it.

    The ``constitutional option'' is the reverse of the truth. In the Constitution, it says nothing about guaranteeing a vote. It says the Senate shall write its own rules. Well, the Senate wrote its own rules and the Senate said it takes 67 votes to change our rules. Our colleagues don't have 67 votes to change the rules, so they are trying to do this sneaky parliamentary move to change the rules. What a way to govern because you didn't get 100 percent of what you want; you got 95 percent. I don't feel sorry for any President who gets 95 percent of what he wants.

    I am telling you, Democratic or Republican Presidents have to work with the Senate and the House and they have to compromise. So it is very important to note that when you hear the Republicans saying all we want is the constitutional option, you say, where in the Constitution does it give you this right? Nowhere.

    Then they will say this: Everybody deserves an up-or-down vote. Everybody. I don't know how many times we have given Janice Rogers Brown a vote. We gave Janice Rogers Brown a vote here once, and Priscilla Owen got a vote four times. Yes, the vote required 60 as the threshold to end extended debate, but they got their vote. Now, when you go back to Bill Clinton, 61 times his nominees got stuck in committee; 61 of Bill Clinton's nominees never got to have a cloture vote. They never got a vote. They were pocket-filibustered in committee. We have never done that. Every single Bush nominee who has come to the floor has had their vote. I know of none who have not had a vote. They just didn't meet the 60-vote threshold.

    That is the second thing you are going to hear: All we are asking for is an up-or-down vote. They had that, but they had to meet the 60-vote threshold to end extended debate. Why? Because they are lifetime appointments, we are checking and balancing the power of the executive by saying don't send us people such as Janice Rogers Brown, who is so out of the mainstream. She sees a military uniform on every senior citizen and says senior citizens want to cannibalize their grandchildren. Excuse me? She says there is no private property left in this country. That is outside the mainstream to the extreme.

    If we Democrats have the courage of our convictions to say no 10 times, give us a little respect; don't try to change the rules in the middle of the night. Do what the Democrats did in the 1930s. Think how good you would feel if you stood up to the President of your own party and said: Mr. President, we will follow you anywhere; we think you are terrific, and we support you in Iraq and on privatizing Social Security, and we support you in your huge deficits; we support you in these trade agreements, we support you this way and that way; but we don't think packing the courts is a good idea. Therefore, we are going to join with the Democrats and say no to this plan. It is very dangerous.

    I want people to understand. The point of my discussion here today is to put a human face on these judges. This isn't about just numbers, although the numbers tell a heck of a story. The Republicans get 208 and not 10 and they are crying and doing this in a sneaky way, without getting 67 votes to do it. That alone is wrong. It is not playing fair, it is not the American way, it is not playing by the rules. The American people want to know it. If you want to fight with us, we will have a debate, but stick with the rules. Get your 67 votes so you can have the arrogance of power. Get your 67 votes so you can tread all over us. But don't do it in this sneak attack, challenging the Parliamentarian, and then having the Senator in the chair say, you know what, it is over; no more filibusters on judges.

    If you do that, you are hurting the American people. Some people say it is about the traditions of our country, the right to unlimited faith, freedom of speech, ``Mr. Smith Goes to Washington,'' I will stand on my feet, that is my God-given right for my State to do that, and that is all true. But for me personally, as a Senator from the largest State in the Union, with 36 million people, I want to protect them. I want to protect the 17-year-old who got raped and not have her come before Janice Rogers Brown and have her stand alone and rule against her. I want to protect the worker who wrote a little e-mail to another worker and said I don't think the boss is being so fair, what do you think? They said we had 2 weeks vacation and now they are counting that day off as one of those days and it is not right, and have to be before Janice Rogers Brown who says the corporation can write anything they want, but you are too lowly. I don't want to have the American people subjected to a judge such as Janice Rogers Brown, who said any city that helps a disabled elderly person get housing is wrong and is destroying private property. I don't want to have my kids in a circumstance where they have to see their grandmother called a "cannibal." I don't want to have a judge who overturns Social Security, who overturns the minimum wage, who overturns the 40-hour workweek.

    The point is, I want to protect the people I represent. So if I don't stand up strongly against a judge such as her, I don't deserve to be here. The people of my State would be upset with me.

    The right I have in this magnificent Senate today is the right of the minority. We have 45 Democrats here and 55 Republicans. I am counting Jim Jeffords as a Democrat for the purpose of discussion because he votes with us. So it is 55-45. Jim Jeffords is an Independent, but he votes with us. By the way, in the recent polls, the Independent voters are for the filibuster; 54 percent are for the filibuster. I want to protect the people I represent, because Janice Rogers Brown has been nominated for the DC Circuit Court, meaning one step below the U.S. Supreme Court. So she is going from the California Supreme Court, where she has dissented in a third of the cases, in a court that has--and you may be interested in this--six Republicans and one Democrat. Janice Rogers Brown has dissented 31 times. This is how out of the mainstream she is. I think it is important to note.

    In the DC Circuit, there is a whole other area of the law that was protested--your right to breathe clean air, your right to drink clean water. This is important for us because environmental laws protect our health, and if we have someone in the court there who doesn't think Government has any right--and she obviously doesn't--to do anything because--what is it she said about Government? If you could put that chart up again. Whenever Government gets involved, this is what she predicts happens. We will show you the quote. Obviously, she doesn't think there is anyplace for Government because she says: ``Where government moves in''--I would say in a circumstance such as the Clean Air Act, where we tell folks you have to make sure the air is kept clean--``community retreats, civil society disintegrates, and our ability to control our own destiny atrophies . . . families are under siege.''

    I don't know what country she is living in. She says: "... unapologetic expropriation of property; the precipitous decline of the rule of law; the rapid rise of corruption, the loss of civility and the triumph of deceit."

    What an optimist. Why are we promoting someone who has this negative view of America? Doesn't she know this is a government of, by, and for the people? That is what we are about. Do we make mistakes sometimes? Yes. Do we have to make sure we fix our laws so they work better? Yes. But to say whenever Government moves in, community retreats, I wonder what she thought of the highway bill we just passed. She probably thinks it is awful because we take the gas taxes and we build highways, and we build transit systems because we think it is important for economic growth. But she says when Government moves in, community retreats, civil society disintegrates, and the result is families are under siege and there is war in the streets.

    So, yes, I am here to say I did stand up against Janice Rogers Brown, and whether she has to meet a 60-vote threshold, which she has been unable to get, or a 51-vote threshold, I will be fighting against this nominee because she is way out of the mainstream. She walked away from judges in her own political party and stood alone 31 times. That is why we have said to the President: Why don't you talk to us about these nominees? We could have told you this one would have trouble. We would have given you the names of some fine conservative Republicans. But not someone who has this wonderful life story, but has a view of America that is amazing.

    Here is what she once said in a speech:

    Most of us no longer find slavery abhorrent. We embrace it. We demand more. Big Government is not just the opiate of the masses; it is the opiate.

    Her point is we are slaves to our Government. Well, again, I don't know what country she is living in. We are not slaves to our Government. We run the Government. We get to vote the people we want in and we get to vote them out. If we don't like what they do, we will let them know. She is out of step, calling senior citizens militant, saying they are taking all of the goodies and free stuff. She doesn't like the minimum wage, doesn't like the 40-hour workweek, doesn't like senior citizens. She never protected women. She doesn't protect our children. She doesn't protect our consumers. She doesn't protect our workers. Why do we want someone such as that to get a promotion?

    Therefore, the Democrats have said to the President, through our voice in the Senate: Send us someone else and we will be delighted to work with you. We have worked with you 208 times, Mr. President, and 10 times we said no.

    We said you are out of the mainstream, and the response of a 95-percent success record by the Republicans--and a few are not going along with it, and bless them for that--is: We will take away your right, Democrats, to stand up for the things you think are important. We will take away your rights by changing the rules in the middle of the game, by skirting a 67-vote requirement for changing the rules. We will do it.

    There is politics being played. The majority leader talked about this in a speech in a political way, which was wrong. He has not agreed to a compromise. Senator Reid has offered several. The fact is, people have to know what is at stake.

    I hope everyone within the sound of my voice will know the reason why Democrats have stood so firmly against the nomination of Janice Rogers Brown. It is because we care about the people we represent, and we care about mainstream judges, and we do not want to see such a radical individual get this position and begin to whittle away at the rights our people have won, at the fairness our people have won.

    This is very important. This vote is going to change the Senate forever. But more than that, it will impact the lives of the people. Changing the Senate, changing tradition, changing the role of the minority to make a difference, to be heard, freedom of speech--these are all important. But at the end of the day, it is about our kids, our grandkids, our seniors, our families, our workers, the air we breathe and the water we drink, and this is all connected to the judges. This is not disconnected. This is the brilliance of our Founders who said the judicial branch, the judges, shall make sure that everything we do in the legislative branch and in the executive branch is constitutional, is right, is reasoned.

    If we have people on the bench who believe that anything we do disintegrates our family; that anything we do, such as the highway bill, for example, turns into an expropriation of property and the rapid rise of corruption and the loss of civility and the triumph of deceit--this belongs somewhere else, not in the courts.

    Mr. President, I thank you for your patience. I thank my staff who has done an extraordinary job for me in analyzing these decisions. This is not easy to do because you have to go line by line. I know the Presiding Officer knows these cases can be very long and confusing. My staff are attorneys. They are also very smart attorneys, and they were able to get to the point of these cases and bring home this message to people that when we fight against 10 judges out of 218, it is for a reason. It is not because we want to be difficult. It is because we believe when the Constitution says the Senate has the right to advise and consent on judges, it does not mean when the President feels like it. It does not mean between the hours of 11 and 1 on Wednesday. It means every time he sends a nomination to us, he should have, in fact, sought the advice and consent of the Senate.

    We have a big debate coming up tomorrow. I just wanted to give a little reality check so people understand for what we have been fighting.

    I thank the Chair.

    Monday, May 23, 2005

    ...random thought patterns a.k.a. the 'vague' blog...

    Questions plague my mind for which there are no simple answers.

    Sometimes, I would trade all the gray in my life for that sweet, sweet black and white.

    I am left holding several bags that I never wanted to carry in the first place.

    There seems to be a moderate constant - for every up gained, there is a down to go with it, be it in the same situation or separate.

    The line between defense and stubbornness is a blurry one...and everyone thinks they "know" the answers to solve everything, even when they know nothing.

    I despise "devil's advocate" more than I despise Hitler and Bin Laden. You don't tell someone to look at/think of something from a different point of view when that someone is in the right to begin with.

    Being 'mature' means being the one who caves, the one who apologizes for doing nothing wrong, the one who sacrafices, the one who swallows their pride, and often is made a doormat repetitively. Being immature means never having to admit - to yourself and/or others - when you're wrong, and consistently blaming others for your problems.

    Civility, co-habitation and co-existence, and maturity go hand-in-hand...but are sometimes nigh-impossible to maintain if you're dealing with the opposites of those ideals.

    "I'm sorry" only works up to a certain, finite point. After that, broken means broken, and burnt bridges cannot be salvaged.

    Forgiveness is divine - but there's a point where you go from being a divine person to being a divine idiot.

    ...

    Pessimism is NOT the point of all of this. The point of all this is to shed light on the gray areas. These things are not so simple.

    Friday, May 20, 2005

    It's Friday. Wooohooo.

    Nevermind. Nothing. Have a good weekend, everyone.



    Quilled Tunes: "Far Too Long" - Godhead

    Save the Republic!

    Yesterday, Star Wars III: Revenge of the Sith opened at theaters nation-wide. And weirdly enough, the plot of what will undoubtedly be one of the biggest films in movie history revolves around a scheming senator who, seduced by visions of absolute power, transforms a democratic republic into an empire.

    We've put together a new TV ad, based on the same theme, that we're launching today. It's our first (and only) political ad to feature both a space battle and an army of judge robots. You can check it out at:

  • http://www.moveonpac.org/savetherepublic/?id=5543-5244209-vXEFMGDFJ2DGxWh9ux4EXg&t=11


  • The movie's opening buzz and its parallel theme to our current fight for the filibuster present a great opportunity to educate the public — and have some fun. So we've put together a flyer that draws on the Revenge of the Sith story to explain the very real threat to democracy posed by the nuclear option. Any chance you can take half an hour tonight or tomorrow to pass out some of these flyers at your local theater?

    You can download the flyer, sign up to hand 'em out, and get some more instructions on exactly what to do at:

  • http://www.moveonpac.org/savetherepublic/?id=5543-5244209-vXEFMGDFJ2DGxWh9ux4EXg&t=9


  • The reporters we've talked to love the idea of combining the two biggest stories in the country today. So even if you're not a big Star Wars fan, you should consider joining in. Together, we can harness the energy around the movie to reach a much broader audience with our message about the dangers of absolute power.

    In Washington, the battle to save the filibuster and appoint fair judges rages on. Today, debate continues on the four most egregious nominees — judges who were filibustered by Democrats because they represent the most ideologically extreme end of American jurisprudence. At any point from today on, Bill Frist could rise and set into motion the "nuclear" process, which will culminate in a vote.

    Republicans are betting that the American public will get lost in the procedural details of this complicated issue. If we can help this issue break out into pop culture, we'll shine a spotlight on this power-grab and illustrate how much Americans really do care about democracy and the system of checks and balances that preserves it.

    It's incredibly easy: just download the flyer and make some copies and head over to your local multiplex to hand them to Star Wars fans. And you can multiply your impact by sending a quick note to the press, based on our sample.

    You can get started right now, at:

  • http://www.moveonpac.org/savetherepublic/?id=5543-5244209-vXEFMGDFJ2DGxWh9ux4EXg&t=13
  • Thursday, May 19, 2005

    ...not quite catharsis...

    The season finale of 'Smallville' was last night, and as expected it was a cliffhanger. I understand why that's done, but I nonetheless am annoyed by it.

    Well, summer has official begun for some people that I know. For others, there's still a few weeks left.

    I'm still really excited about Heather getting that job. I think I like to watch people around me succeeding a bit more than when I personally succeed, to an extent. The cool thing is she didn't even have to try out - they just GAVE her the job because she's that good at dance. That's my baby!

    I got my Japanese promo copy of the self-titled Gravity Kills album. It's still even in it's original wrapping, too. Nice!

    I really don't have too much to say today. This should be some relief for those who hate those long-winded blogs.

    Hopefully this weekend will involve some carousing on my part.

    Quilled Tunes: "Revenga" - System Of A Down

    Wednesday, May 18, 2005

    Gravity Kills - One Thing

    Are you wishing
    Upon a star that's falling
    Hearts are ringing
    Now I'm the one
    That you left standing here

    You'll never see the little things
    You'll never change me

    Give me just one thing
    Something to cling to
    Something for me to make it
    Give me just one thing
    Something to cling to
    Something to pray to
    Give me just one thing

    Lay before me
    And everything you've given
    Same old story
    There's not one thing
    That opens up my eyes

    You'll never see the little things
    You'll never change me

    Give me just one thing
    Something to cling to
    Something for me to make it
    Give me just one thing
    Something to cling to
    Something to pray to
    Give me just one thing

    [Are you wishing
    It's only you they're wanting
    Right behind me
    They all will dance
    While I twist in the wind

    You'll never see the little things
    You'll never change me

    Give me just one thing
    Something to cling to
    Something for me to make it
    Give me just one thing
    Something to cling to
    Something to pray to
    Give me just one thing

    Now I can't see
    There'll never be
    It rips right through me

    You'll never see the little things
    You'll never change me

    Give me just one thing
    Give me just one thing]

    ***One thing, one way, one touch, one hope, one faith
    One feel, one taste, one wish, one steal, one chance, one deal
    One thing, one way, one touch, one hope, one faith

    You'll never change me***

    Give me just one thing
    Something to cling to
    Something for me to make it
    Give me just one thing
    Something to cling to
    Something to pray to
    Give me just one thing

    One thing...
    One thing...
    One thing...
    One thing...
    Give me just one thing


    *Lyrics appearing in [ ] brackets are the original lyrics from the demo of "One Thing", and replaced with the lryics appearing in *** *** asterisks (kyoo-pahns).

    Tuesday, May 17, 2005

    ...reverse evangelism a.k.a. the bible anti-thump...

    Have you ever wondered what "bible-thumping" would be like in reverse? If so, this article will entertain and intrigue you:

  • Liberal Bible-Thumping


  • Here's just a small excerpt:

    "John Shelby Spong, the former bishop, tosses a hand grenade into the cultural wars with "The Sins of Scripture," which examines why the Bible - for all its message of love and charity - has often been used through history to oppose democracy and women's rights, to justify slavery and even mass murder."

    TRUE Patriotism

    This is a quote from Bill Moyers, found today on Salon:

    "I wore my flag tonight, first time. Until now I haven't thought it necessary to display a little metallic icon of patriotism for everyone to see. It was enough to vote, pay my taxes, perform my civic duties, speak my mind, and do my best to raise our kids to be good Americans. Sometimes I would offer a small prayer of gratitude that I had been born in a country whose institutions sustained me, whose armed forces protected me, and whose ideals inspired me. I offered my heart's affection in return. It no more occurred to me to flaunt the flag on my chest than it did to pin my mother's picture on my lapel to prove her son's love. Mother knew where I stood. So does my country. I even tuck a valentine in my tax returns on April 15th.

    "So what's this doing here? I put it on to take it back. The flag's been hijacked and turned into a logo, the trademark -- the trademark of a monopoly on patriotism. On most Sunday-morning talk shows, official chests appear adorned with the flag as if it's the Good Housekeeping seal of approval. During the State of the Union, did you notice Bush and Cheney wearing the flag? How come? No administration's patriotism is ever in doubt, only its policies. And the flag bestows no immunity from error. When I see flags sprouting on official labels, I think of the time in China when I saw Mao's Little Red Book of orthodoxy on every official's desk, omnipresent and unread.
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    "But more galling than anything are all those moralistic ideologues in Washington sporting the flag in their lapel while writing books and running Web sites and publishing magazines attacking dissenters as un-American. They are people whose ardor for war grows disproportionately to their distance from the fighting. They're in the same league as those swarms of corporate lobbyists wearing flags and prowling Capitol Hill for tax breaks, even as they call for spending more on war.

    "So I put this on as a modest response to men with flags in their lapels who shoot missiles from the safety of Washington think tanks. or argue that sacrifice is good as long as they don't have to make it, or approve of bribing governments to join the 'Coalition of the Willing.' I put it on to remind myself that not every patriot thinks we should do to the people of Baghdad what bin Laden did to us. The flag belongs to the country, not to the government, and it reminds me that it's not un-American to think that war, except in self-defense, is a failure of moral imagination, political nerve and diplomacy. Come to think of it, standing up to your government can mean standing up for your country."

    *Found on Tom's LiveJournal

    Monday, May 16, 2005

    ...I'm going to raw-dog your mother (just kidding)...

    Another week begins. I have several things to report on. Let’s get started, shall we?

    First thing’s first – HEATHER GOT THE JOB! She’s now a fitness instructor at New Lady Fitness! She didn’t even have to audition for the job – it was handed to her the same way it was offered to her…automatically. The lady told her: “I don’t even have to audition you, you can move.”

    @Heather: Congratulations, sweetheart! I love you and I’m VERY proud of you.

    This was an interesting weekend. Friday, Heather was gone for the night at Michelle’s parents’ house in Greenville. Ben and I went to Concord Grill for dinner and then watched Army of Darkness. Saturday, Ben, his brother Fabio, and I went to Greenville for their barbeque. I found out that I’m not completely horrible at baseball (after I found a batting stance that worked for me, I was delivering mostly solid hits), and that I have a somewhat knack for fishing (I caught three good-sized fish). The downside is that I got pretty sun burnt for my troubles. (Thank God for aloe vera.)

    After we left the barbeque, we came home and hung out for a bit with Nate Berry. There was a lot of reminiscing over some of the crazy people we’ve come to know throughout the years (Mark West, James, Dan Mallet, etcetera). Until that point, I hadn’t really looked back and thought about the number of strange people I’ve met. It’s slightly disturbing.

    The word of the day is “raw-dog”. It’s a verb, and it means ‘to fuck a Thai prostitute without wearing a prophylactic’. Use it in a sentence (see title), preferably verbally to a random stranger – an elderly random stranger.

    We also had Scuba with us, who is now a college graduate. He has a B.S. (bachelor of science) like I do, in the field of construction management. (Beaver also graduated.)

    @Scuba: Congratulations, Scuba!
    (@Beaver: Congratulations.)

    Sunday ended the weekend with shopping (more on that below), Chinese food, and movie night.

    Question has returned to blog-world. He went through a period of self-doubt, as well as some other things, but all is well. He starts school in June and he’s got a definite plan in the works. Sounds like he might have a female interest (maybe, don’t quote me on that), too.

    @Question: Congratulations, man! Keep at it, you’ll get where you need/want to be. I believe in you.

    Heather’s party is still on for Saturday, June 11th, 2005. There was some question over whether it was, due to that being Erich’s birthday. (Don’t ask – I’d rather not open that can o’ worms today.) Anyway, the plan is going out to dinner before the party with whoever wants to do that, and then back to our place for the festivities. There will be drinks, food, games, music, movies…you know the drill. Those who feel like drinking exorbitant amounts are welcome to crash at our place, just bring a pillow and blanket.

    I’m mulling over some ideas for some events this summer. MAJOR events. I won’t let the cat out of the bag just yet (as much as I’d LOVE to), as I still have to form a general idea of what is and isn’t possible. I’ll keep you all posted.

    Other news (or As If Anyone Really Cares): The Council Chambers is making a come back. Jay Winkleman is going in the U.S. Air Force.

    “Predator 2” is now mine. I also am awaiting “Without A Paddle” and “The Conan Collection” (the Barbarian, NOT O’Brien). Thanks to Sam Goody’s Replay Rewards, I will be getting even MORE music/movies soon. I already had $40 in rewards stocked up before I renewed, and now it’s probably close to $60 or more.

    Go out and buy the new Nine Inch Nails album, “With Teeth”. Just do it. Sell blood or sperm if you have to – it’s worth it.

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    Editorial Series – The Religious Right: Saints of Subversives

  • The Religious Right: Saints or Subversives; Part I – The Lure of Christian Nationalism

  • The Religious Right: Saints or Subversives; Part II – Hang Ten and Fight!

  • The Religious Right: Saints or Subversives; Part III – A Deadly Culture of Life

  • The Religious Right: Saints or Subversives; Part IV – Pie In The Sky


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    Quilled Tunes: “Everyday Is Exactly The Same” – Nine Inch Nails

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    Word(s) of the Blog:

    hark back \HARK-BACK\ verb

    1 : to turn back to an earlier topic or circumstance
    *2 : to go back to something as an origin or source

    Example sentence:
    The restaurant's art deco interior harks back to Paris in the 1920s.

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    trammel \TRAM-ul\ noun

    1 : a net for catching birds or fish
    *2 : something impeding activity, progress, or freedom : restraint -- usually used in plural

    Example sentence:
    "I cast the miserable trammels of worldly discretion to the winds, and spoke with the fervour that filled me...." (Wilkie Collins, “The Moonstone”)

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    And now, (as if you wanted it) the TRUTH:

  • Bizarre Sex Habits of the Extreme Right Wing
  • (Thanks to Amber for sending this to me.)
  • Middle East: If Bush Wanted…

  • The Young and the Jobless

  • They Lied To Us
  • Friday, May 13, 2005

    Friday the 13th

    Ki, ki, ki...ma, ma, ma...

    Wednesday, May 11, 2005

    ...hump day...

    Yesterday afternoon, I was handed three sets of plans, all for Koman Group. The bids for those projects are due tomorrow afternoon. I completed all three take offs slightly before lunch. Damn I'm getting good at this...

    Last night was hanging at Scott's for a production meeting about the Loaf film. Things were discussed, decisions were made, and events are now looking to be in a more fluid motion.

    Scott burned me a copy of the new Nails album, "With Teeth". I really can't find the words to describe it. It's excellent. "With Teeth" has now joined Gravity Kills' "Superstarved" as an album that is completely an impromptu 'soundtrack' for myself. I.E. if you really wanna catch a glimpse into what I'm really about and what makes me 'tick', listen to NIN - "With Teeth" and Gravity Kills - "Superstarved".

    Quilled Tunes: "All The Love In The World" - Nine Inch Nails

    Tuesday, May 10, 2005

    ...martyr...pariah...Quill...

    I know most of you outright hate and loathe political content. However, there is this little flash movie that you might find interesting and informative:
  • Bush in 30 Years: Social Security - "If it ain't broke, don't privatize it!"

  • (There was a contest for the best flash animation against Bush’s idea to privatize Social Security. After watching it, I learned some things that I didn’t know before. Just give it a shot, I guarantee you’ll at least learn something you had no idea about before…)

    I agree with Heather – I myself am very tired of all of the bullshit, high school conflict going on. More and more, it seems that the only way to stop it is to let things drop and open myself up to be a human doormat/scapegoat again.

    Well, I’ve decided that’s not happening. I don’t deserve that. I don’t deserve to be blamed for everything that goes wrong, and I don’t deserve to get backstabs for all my troubles of being overly fair and peaceable. I’m a smart-ass, and I deserve to be called on my wrong words or actions – but I never deserved any of that other stuff and I will. Not. Tolerate. It. Anymore. I won’t open myself up to that kind of attack anymore. Period.

    I’m willing to hang out in a group and live and let live. I’m willing to do that.

    I’m willing to do that because everything has gotten out of control. My personal choice in friendships has been turned into a group issue, and as a result people are being excluded and taking sides.

    I’m willing to do that because – well – actually I’ve ALWAYS had this standpoint. I never asked anyone to “side” with me on anything involving this crap. I never was unwilling to go places because some people were going to be there that I didn’t care for.

    I never even wanted to drop anyone as a friend – but I was given little choice in those matters, despite my best efforts.

    So this is me, trying again to be the bigger person and make a bid for this shit to just stop.

    (I don’t want one solitary post playing devil’s advocate on anything. I don’t want to hear it.)

    Quill's Final Thought (of the Blog):

    Most people will never be able to see anything past their own two eyes.

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    Quilled Tunes: “Blame” – Gravity Kills

    Sunday, May 08, 2005

    ...the drugs are working...

    Hello and a Happy Mother's Day to everyone.

    Last night was Kareoke at O'Leary's. The place was absolutely packed, with Corey having three or four rows of requests going. Despite that, it was a good time. (I sang pretty damn well for a guy all congested with allergies, if I do say so.)

    Scott, Hizzy, Nix, Heather, myself, Scuba, Joe, Angel, DeLarbar, and Chuck were in attendance. Corey too, of course, but he was working. It was a good time. I even ran into Ed Cluckies (sp?), an old friend of mine from Mr. Evans' drafting class at Oakville, and also working for Mehlville during summers. I have to say, I haven't been called "Clydesdale" in quite awhile, and it was kinda cool.

    (The summer college workers nicknamed me 'Clydesdale', because I was strong and determined like a work-horse, and could go almost all 8-hours of the work day at full steam. Hehe.)

    I'm feeling much better now. The Allegra-D for my allergies works like a dream, and I can feel my nose becoming less sniffly (although this morning I was sniffling a lot, I'm not this afternoon). The antibiotics I'm taking to prevent the ear infection are working as well. By Tuesday or Wednesday, I should be right as rain. Thank the lord for health insurance...

    Quilled Tunes: "Wonderwall" - Oasis

    Friday, May 06, 2005

    This particular time, I'm going to say YES to drugs...

    ...because without them, I'm going to be in MUCH suffering.

    This Saturday is looking to be at Ben and Michelle's. I'm sure there will be fun, music, games, and beer as always.

    Another wonderful weekend.

    Thursday, May 05, 2005

    ...now we come around again...

    THIS marks the beginning of the end:
  • Texas House to cheerleaders: Don't shake it - Texas lawmakers sent a message to the state's high school cheerleaders Wednesday: no more booty-shaking at the game.


  • Quilled Scripts is back, chock full of feature-filled goodness for you. I just so happen to have the time to deal with it today, plus I’ve been stockpiling features for the last week or so.

    My car is back, and the AC never felt sweeter. Plus, I didn’t have to pay over a grand to get it fixed. Klein’s Auto is the first HONEST auto shop I’ve encountered. Forget Dobbs or Car-X - I HIGHLY recommend them for all your auto repair needs; ask for Larry.

    Klein’s Auto Repair Service
    5679 S Lindbergh Blvd, Affton, MO 63123
    (314) 849-8616

    Hung out with Scott on Tuesday. We listened to that Burger King 9-1-1 call and the Pat O’Brien voice mails. It was all very hilarious. Oh, and Scott has done a mix of “The Hand That Feeds” by Nine Inch Nails. It’s VERY good. We went to Best Buy, and Scott got some new games. One is a hunting game where dangerous animals hunt YOU at the same time you’re hunting them. Another is a very, very acid-tripped out game which I can’t remember the name of. When I do, I’ll say more about it.

    I’m still suffering through these damned allergies. I’m on Advil and Allegra-D. Fun times. I’ll say it again, allergies suck.

    Quill's Final Thought (of the Blog):

    I admit being too liberal is a very dangerous thing; after all, there’s something to be said for discretion. But, being too conservative infringes on the very thing that makes our country great – our FREEDOM.

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    Quilled Tunes: “The Hand That Feeds” – Nine Inch Nails

    Quote of the Blog: “Peace cannot be achieved through violence, it can only be attained through understanding.” – Ralph Waldo Emerson

    Literary Quote of the Blog:

    "Oh, what a tangled web we weave,
    When first we practice to deceive!” – Sir Walter Scott, ‘Marmion’

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    Word(s) of the Blog:

    glower \GLOW-er ("OW" as in "cow")\ verb

    : to look or stare with sullen annoyance or anger

    Example sentence:
    Mariah crossed her arms and glowered at Jeff, making it perfectly clear that she'd had enough of his teasing.

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    gambit \GAM-bit\ noun

    1 : a chess opening in which a player risks one or more pawns or a minor piece to gain an advantage in position
    2 a (1) : a remark intended to start a conversation or make a telling point (2) : topic *b : a calculated move : stratagem

    Example sentence:
    Amy wasn't very impressed with Ryan's opening gambit: spilling his drink to get her attention.

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    And now, (as if you wanted it) the TRUTH:

  • Support for Iraq War at Lowest Level

  • God “Basis” for GOP’s Philosophy


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    On This Day In History – May 5th:

    1821: Former French emperor Napoleon Bonaparte dies in exile on the island of St. Helena.

    1921: Chanel No. 5 perfume, created by perfumer Ernst Beaux for Coco Chanel, is launched.

    1925: Biology teacher John Scopes is arrested for teaching the theory of evolution, which is outlawed in Tennessee public schools; he is later convicted in the so-called "Monkey Trial."

    1961: Astronaut Alan Shepard makes a 15-minute suborbital flight, becoming the first American to travel in space.

    1981: Bobby Sands is the first of 10 Irish Republican Army hunger strikers to die in a Belfast prison; they were protesting their treatment as criminals rather than political prisoners.

    Wednesday, May 04, 2005

    Allergies suck.

    Tuesday, May 03, 2005

    ...Quill's blog entry of massive fun!!...

    If you haven’t had the hilarious pleasure of hearing this, check out the link below. It’s amazing how colossally stupid some people can be.
  • Burger King 9-1-1 Call


  • I've just keep having super fun and interesting things to show you. Things like this:
  • Kitten Cannon


  • And for all you horror fans out there, this:
  • A Christmas Tale (Freddy vs. Jason vs. Ash)


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    Quilled Link(s) of the Blog:
  • This Day In Music.com

  • This is a neat little site where you can access thousands upon thousands of musical and music-related trivia tidbits (rendering Hizzy obsolete...just kidding). There’s also a section where you can type in your birthday and find out which song was top of the charts the day you were born!

    (Grease - Frankie Valli is my U.S. chart topper;
    Three Times A Lady – The Commodores is my U.K. chart topper)

    ...check it out - something familiar...

    Scapegoating is a hostile social - psychological discrediting routine by which people move blame and responsibility away from themselves and towards a target person or group. It is also a practice by which angry feelings and feelings of hostility may be projected, via inappropriate accusation, towards others. The target feels wrongly persecuted and receives misplaced vilification, blame and criticism; he is likely to suffer rejection from those who the perpetrator seeks to influence. Scapegoating has a wide range of focus: from "approved" enemies of very large groups of people down to the scapegoating of individuals by other individuals. Distortion is always a feature.

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    :)

    I just had to post that. Had to.

    Monday, May 02, 2005

    ...the light at the end of the immature, endless tunnel...

    It was a wonderful weekend.

    As reported earlier, Saturday night we had Scott, Andrea, Scuba, and Becky over. Then, Sunday we did laundry and did barbeque at Heather's parents.

    I want my car back. At least I'll have the luxury of air conditioning again.

    It's nearly lunch time. I have so many options thanks to the wonderful world of grocery shopping. Maybe I'll have a burger. Maybe a sandwich. Maybe some beef stew. The possibilities are endless. Perhaps I will have a mix of things. We shall see.

    The big shindig is fast approaching now. June 11th, 2005 - "End of the Year/Teacher of the Year"! There will be mass amounts of both food and drink...there will be music and games...there will most certainly be drunken debachery...and it only happens once a year. Be prepared for a rocking good time.

    ...randomness at it's finest...

    I'm an eye of the goddamned storm.


    Sometimes I am truly astonished at the unmitigated stupidity of some of the people I've befriended or acquainted myself with over the years.


    ...and I never thought I would be one of the normals. I thought I was the weirdo.


    Stop the goddamned ride, I wanna get off; just please, for fuck's sake, stop it now. It's fun to watch, but not to ride all the time, 24-7, in the front car, over and over and over.


    And now, we return you to abnormalicy. :)

    Sunday, May 01, 2005

    ...Sunday, beautiful Sunday...

    Last night, we had Scuba, Scott, and Hizzy over to hang out. Everyone was really tired, though, so things ended around 11:30.

    We also got some new movies - Cellular, The Punisher, and Paparrazi. They were a surprise gift for Heather, and they were 3 for $30 at Hollywood Video.

    And today, here I sit doing laundry at my parents' house. After that's done, I'm going to Heather's parents' house for barbeque.

    Not too much else going on. My car's AC system was about to fall apart, and that's being fixed right now at Klein's Automotive on Lindbergh. I highly recommend Klein's for all your auto repair needs; he doesn't screw you on the labor like almost every other auto repair shop.

    I want to take a moment to apologize for the retarded shit on Quilled Scripts lately. Believe me, if there was a way to avoid it all, it would have already been done. As it is, I was minding my own business...

    I'm going to be crossing a few more DVDs/CDs off my wish list soon - I have cash certificates waiting for me from my Sam Goody/Suncoast Replay Rewards. About $40 worth. And, there will be more once I renew my membership and get double points on a purchase the same day.

    Life is perfect. :)

    Quilled Tunes: "It's A Beautiful Day" - U2

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    The Quilled Matrix