Changes.

I am no longer working for Kozeny-Wagner.

Things are shitty for KWI as far as jobs on the commercial side; and they've made cuts, and I was one of them. I didn't get let go for any other reason, and while that makes me feel good that I'm still great at the job, it still nonetheless sucks anyway.

But, I now have massive amounts of experience, an impecable work record, excellent recommendations, and a very high probability of landing something provided I find the right opportunities (which I am even now seeking out).

Thank you all for support. I love you guys. Things are going to work out and I'm going to find a great job. And if I seem mopey or sad, it's only because this is hard, not because I don't have faith or don't believe that things are going to be better than ever. Thank you in advance for understanding that.

@Heather: What can I say that I haven't said to you already? You're the best, and my greatest supporter, and I'm so very grateful for every grain of it. I love you, and with your faith in me fueling my own, we're going to conquer this like we always do.

Onward and upward to bigger and brighter things. :)

A Blog for Beaver

Beaver, I know first-hand, from experience, what you are going through right now. It's hard, and it sucks, and it hurts. It gets very bleak sometimes and seems hopeless.

I know you've had people tell you to "get over it" and that you should "settle for a 'good' job at Wal-Mart or Borders"...those people should fuck off, because they don't know shit about your situation. (Not to be a dick about it, but they should.)

You have a dream and you are following it. I believe in you and I know that everything will fall into place for you. I know it's so very hard to see that right now, but it will.

I am here for you, my friend. Keep striving for what you want, keep fighting for it, and above all, keep hope and keep looking toward that light you're chasing.

Do not give in and do not give up, and especially do not "settle" for less than your dreams.

Everything will be okay.

SAVE THE INTERNET!!!!

Check this out...some internet big-wigs wanna regulate the internet. Here's the short stack:

Say you use Comcast. Well, your internet service would only let you view websites that Comcast gets money from; if you try to visit a site that doesn't, well, you're internet won't let you through to it.

Bullshit? Nope, unfortunately, it's in the works right now, and the website above is trying to stop it. Join in the fight to protect your freedom to visit any damn site you please.

Do it now!

Hizzy-crite and her acts of Hizz-pocrisy

Hizzy, this one is both for you and at you.

I got a call today from Beaver; he is very pissed. Turns out that you've been naming the teams at Trivia things like "Beaver Is Gay" and "Beaver Loves Bob Saget". Additionally, all the gay jokes and other things of this nature...I hear about those regularly.

You sent me an email chastizing ME for all the times I joke and throw out insults, and preach up and down about how I should stop making others feel like shit. I apologized to you and promised you that I wouldn't crack jokes about you anymore, but that I would speak up about it if you kept doing it yourself and that the deal would be off if you did it to ME.

Then, I come to find out that your hypocritical dumbass is routinely doing it to Beaver, even though he asks you to stop in all seriousness. Repeatedly.

Make no mistake - there is NO difference between when I joke and hurt people and when YOU do it. The fact that you can actually sit there and complain about it when you do what you do is unbelievably sad, and actually reflects on you.

At least I give people the mutual respect of giving it right back to me when I joke around. You don't even do that, you COMPLAIN when people do it to you like a whiney little child and then you turn around and do it to them.

Beaver is a fucking person with feelings. I am guilty of joking about him, and doing bad shit to him in the past, but much of that is behind both of us now, AND he told me today that he feels much less respected by YOU. At least I allow him to throw stuff back at me in kind, even if his retorts are less than spectacular sometimes...

I don't care if it's not my business, I don't care if you already apologized; you're a HIZZY-crite, and everyone should KNOW that for all the fucking bitching and moaning you do about being made fun of by others.

Treat others the same way you would expect to be treated. Get that through your thick skull.

Maybe I should learn to joke less; maybe I should back off the whole insult thing; but I'm worlds ahead of YOU in both departments.

@Beaver: I got your back.

Now I'm sure you or someone else - possibly a relative of some type - just might post a comment or something; I don't care. Comment all you want, spin on about how I'm really the dick or the problem or have no room to talk. None of that changes, or distracts from, what YOU did. Yes, I'm guilty of doing it...and just how does that justify YOU?

A Message; And Then An Actual Blog Post.

Don't need it. Don't want it. Don't have to answer for it.

I am what I am, and unfortunately for you, you are what you are.

I know now; I see now. I know, and I see. And that's the long and short of it.

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It's been a fun weekend. Helped my grandmother clear out her old house Saturday afternoon, then Saturday night I was at Scott's until around 6:00 AM. Many interesting things were discussed, and fun was had by all.

Ben and Michelle had us over on Friday evening; we had dinner, played games, and watched the Cardinals game. Ben has gotten a lot better at NES Track & Field...although, at the tail end of it all, we learned that I had been trying to compete with him on a portion of the pad that was most likely broken. We shall see next time...

@Beaver: You will fall into your nitch as far as your career goes; just keep steaming ahead, I believe things will work out in your favor.

Heather is on her way home as I type this, and I will be picking her up from her parents' house. Time for movies and snuggling. Which is why this blog entry ends....now.

:)

In Response To Beaver's Thoughts

I have worked 16 plus hours straight with no break, no rest, and no food, thank you. It sucked.

Which is why I said I agree with you being angry about it.However, I merely pointed out that there's such a thing as picking your battles. Speaking up and standing up for yourself is a powerful and positive thing, but it can also fuck you if you don't go about it the right way.

Like I told you, if you are fine with saying what you said to your boss, that's on you, bud. I merely said that it probably wasn't the smartest route to take, considering that they are your ONE and ONLY job related to your career choice at this point and time. You depend on a good reference and you NEED the experience on your resume.

And, by the way, I don't pride myself on being mistreated; I pride myself on the manner in which I conducted myself professionally, which paid off in the long run.

I encourage you to keep speaking your mind. But like anything else, the power that comes with being so self-confident comes with the responsibility to hold your tongue when necessary.

You almost sound as if I'm trying to control and silence you. As if I seek to hold you back in some way. Far from it. I said what I said to you out of concern for your career, and your well-being; it's hard in the market we're in for people who want to work IN THEIR FIELD, and job experience and good references are priceless.

Kudos to your stance at having a voice; but don't fuck yourself with it is all I'm trying to say.