...why the need for a fight? (aka leave it be)...

I really need to do something about these marathon posts of mine…I sure can be long-winded, can’t I? Today’s topic has to do with people who like to generate a conflict (god, I sound like a talk show host).

Now, I realize that in a perfect world, a group of friends would band together and everyone would get along with everyone else; and if there were any fights, everyone would work toward a common goal to resolve it. We don’t live in a perfect world, however, and things just aren’t that way at all. Unfortunately (and I mean that), things go sour, friendships come and go for varying reasons, and the tightest of groups drift apart. This is part of life. I’ve learned this all too well in recent years. My group from high school, what we called Bug Juice for years, it changing in ways I could have never predicted. What used to be a HUGE “family” is now a loose collective who are each going down their own paths. Thankfully, many of us will still be friends despite this fact. Not all, however.

I’m not unwilling to work out my differences with people (i.e. Erich). I’ve been told that I am sometimes a little too forgiving. Eventually, push will come to shove and it will either happen or not happen, and come what may, Erich and I will both live our lives. I wish him the best, in any event.

However, this situation is between the two of us to sort through. It doesn’t involve anyone else. It shouldn’t involve anyone else. Sure, he has issues with several people, but as far as me and Erich go, it’s between the two of us. Therefore, I will not allow anyone else to interject him or herself into it. I’m not going to settle my differences with someone just for the good of the social structure; I don’t care if me “dropping it” would make things more comfortable for a large group of people. If I decide not to come to an event because I don’t feel like dealing with a certain person, that is what I am going to do, and that’s the end of it. I am not obligated to be anyone’s friend, nor am I obligated to even “play nice” with a person for the sake of a large group; it is something that I choose to do if I wish. It’s not that I don’t care about my group of friends, or their happiness; but why should I have to put on an act or do things just because it’s “for the good of the group?” Sorry if that sounds selfish, but a person's priorities should not be other people all the time.

Hizzy, I appreciate your concerns and odd need to facilitate this ‘resolving of issues’ between Erich and whoever, but as I’ve stated before, you’d do better for yourself to butt out of it. That’s not to be mean, but what’s between me and Erich, and Erich and whoever else for that matter, doesn’t involve you at all. Maybe since you’re part of the group, it affects you in some way indirectly, but you’ll get that with anything that happens in life, so that doesn’t count as something that concerns you. This need to “get this group together” is not wanted. Not by me, at least. I prefer to handle my own affairs the way I choose to handle them. When and if I need your assistance or advice, believe me, I will ask.

On a side note, you seem to enjoy the thrill of a good confrontation. You always seem to push for some sort of conflict to happen. I understand that conflict makes things really interesting; I enjoy that kind of thing as much as the next person, it’s like a soap opera in real life, and everyone loves soap opera. But, we don’t need to create conflict out of thin air. Pushing for Erich and me to talk is doing just that, especially if it’s not he and I doing it on our own. There have been several occasions where you seem to lobby for actions that would cause the most conflict and tension. You love conflict; it’s a thrill for you, one that is understandable. It needs to stop, though. I would like it to stop.

Anyway, in other news, Scott should have his new Silent Hill game today…which means that we may just find him dead, sitting in a pool of his own drool, piss, and man-juice gripping the controller like a vice and staring blankly at the screen in a few weeks time. Hopefully, he’ll eat and sleep in between marathon sessions. He he.

I’m sorry if anyone was offended by yesterday’s topic. That was a long time coming. And, I’m not sorry for saying any of it to him (if he read it); if anything, I’m sorry I was so calm and fair about it all. J.D. really deserves to be completely bitched out. But, I am a better person than he, so I didn’t stoop that low.

Well, I am continuously updating this Juice Wars thing…I’m now giving Dave a 9 ranking for his blind rage (aka “boarserker”) mode; I’m doing this because even though Dave may lose much of his cognitive fighting in that mode, he really would be pretty impossible to put down in that state, given his ability to turn pain into fuel for his attacks. I’ll probably start another blog titled Juice Wars, and I will post different fights and scenarios for people to vote on, just for fun, based on the stats to date on this journal. That way, if you don’t want to read about that, and think it’s stupid and childish, you won’t have to here. I have to learn to post links first, though…

That’s it for today, folks. Later!

Quote of the Blog: “Because things are the way they are, things will not stay the way they are.” – Bertolt Brecht