...Here's an idea! Let's beat the @#!& out this dead horse...
(Apologies in advance for anyone who doesn't want to get into this whole "Beaver/Quill" thing AGAIN. He felt the need to go on and on about it in HIS blog, and he didn't tell the whole story. So...)
P.S. I formally apologize to Hizzy, Nix, and anyone else I might have offended with any joking around recently. Please, TELL ME if that's ever the case; it's NEVER my intention to hurt anyone.
In response to Beaver's "Thoughts":
You started saying out of line stuff about my family, and I responded in kind. You later told me that it didn't bother you when I asked you about it; thus, I never apologized. This happened all the time.
If you were being offended by it all, you could have fooled ME. Plus, it doesn't help your case any that YOU were doing the same thing, and calling it a "game".
If you had wanted to jump on me for what I did, that's fine - but you DIDN'T jump on me; you jumped on Heather. Heather NEVER said anything or did anything to you. You openly admitted to me - and to Hizzy - that you ONLY did what you did to get to me.
Yes, I'm a smartass. Yes, I've made some jokes that may have unintentionally hurt. But every time I'm called on it or told about it, I apologize. And I rarely make the same mistakes twice with jokes that are out of line (unless I'm led to falsely believe that it's okay to do so, as you led me to believe).
I'm not making any excuses for myself - I've went places I shouldn't go with my "jokes" in the past; and I'll probably make more mistakes in the future, because I'm human. But the things that I say are in a joking manner, and not meant out of malice or cruelty.
That's different from what YOU did. YOU said what you said because you were throwing a tantrum, and couldn't keep a promise you made to me several times over; and you KNEW it would hurt Heather, who didn’t do anything, and you did it anyway just to get some twisted form of revenge in your little beaverish brain.
Plus, you could have ditched me as a friend for what I "did" to you (even though you NEVER said anything about it and acted like it was cool). You could have attacked me on the job search issue, on ANY issue. But no - you HAD to pick on Heather, who has stuck up for you more than you'll ever know, and who sure as hell didn't deserve the ONE COMMENT that you KNEW would cut the deepest. On my WORST day of joking, I NEVER did anything like that to ANYONE with malicious intent. Thus, the difference between what YOU did and what I do.
I've NEVER threatened to make fun of anything that was personal; I've ONLY stated that I don't and why I don't. If someone got personal on ME, I would have rights to do the same.
Say what you will - it doesn't matter. As I told you before, there's no excuse for what you did, and no way for you to paint yourself in a justified light. It's not like you tried to inform me of what I did to you; you instead kept it bottled up, and directed it at a third, innocent party. You never said word one about any of this; all of a sudden, these hidden, surprise reasons for your actions are surfacing. Personally, I think you're trying to save some kind of face here; it's not working. Not on me.
It's funny how you left out that this isn't the first time you've attacked Heather unwarranted with low blows. It's also funny how you left out that you've made remarks about Heather's weight before, and I was kind enough - forgiving enough - to let that slide because we were friends. Or how about how you promised me, after several occurances, NOT TO DO THIS ANYMORE - and lo and behold, you did it AGAIN. I've been telling you for years - YEARS - that there are consequences for shit like that. You're just upset because someone finally gave you a consequence. Waaaaah, waaaah, waaah...cry me a river. You made this bed for yourself; sleep in it. "It's not fair to ME [Dan], it's not fair." Well, guess what? I GAVE you "fair"; I handed it to you on a silver platter over and over again. It's not MY fault that you just HAD to keep up the bullshit.
It doesn't matter to me that it was said in confidence to Corey - it was said either way. If you have issue with THAT aspect of it, take it up with Corey.
You wanna hide things, that's cool if it's the way you deal with shit; but then you can't bitch about things that people do when they aren't told they're doing you wrong.
It's actually funny you're so worried about all this. I mean, after all, I'm this big asshole, right? According to you, Heather and I are both big jerks, so why would you be crying over losing us as friends? Why would you even fucking care? Oh, I guess you don't like being left out of gatherings that take place at our home...I guess you feel THAT isn't fair to you. You should have thought of that before running your little mouth (but then, running your mouth is all you seem to be able to do).
I've told you that no one is "hating" you for what you did. You're making this a bigger issue than it has to be. You're bringing everyone into it with this blog. If you want people to pass judgment on it all, that's fine. Just don't be surprised if some people don't see it your way.
So you think I'm an asshole. So you think I'm a sick person who gets his rocks off on other people's pain. So what? I dropped you, dude; what you have to say DOESN"T MATTER TO ME. What Erich thinks, what Toni think; same thing. The people that KNOW me know my deal, which I have explained a thousand fold over a million times. [*EDIT* I actually wouldn't care what anyone - Hizzy, Nix, etc. - had to say on the matter; I've made the decision and it's not going to change.]
By the way, this was because you decided to "clear the air" about things, and yet, you only told half the story, curiously the half of it that paints you as the "poor victim" in all of this. And, as long as we're setting the record straight...
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Quilled Tunes: “Back The Fuck Up” – Fear Factory
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